We Pretended and we became in Denial

It started out a friends every thing was perfect
we enjoyed each other company like siblings
everything turned out fine
as we had promised not to love again after we had heart breaking
relationships that were based on lies.
one accident changed all our beliefs and hopes

It was just one kiss and everything that was a fantasy became real
it took a lot for me to know this was love
only small things meant a lot to get me through
Not a single day passed by not thinking about us
you laughter you moods change made me see
Either i am in denial for this burning feelings

It flatters me to see you happy
I never knew love was better the second time around until i meet you.
i wanna thank you for opening my eyes and show me love is real
Although this pretending that something is burning is not there
it is a plain lie we can stare in each other in the face
We no longer express how we fill because the kiss was just something special.

I am tired of sending you sms, and calling you on the phone
i am going to be a man about this and say it might scare you
or you can find it shocking but this words i have never uttered them
To anyone but i have to say i was in denial for too long but it comes
to this that this friendship is no longer working for me i want more
you captured me with you tenderness and i am in love with you.

when i said we needed space and you deserve someone better
that was a coward speaking and a hypocrite>
Love does not need big things to know is calling you
i love you enough i know i cannot give you what you need now
but promise is that your hopes and dreams i will fulfill
come and embrace our love for each other
i am madly in love with you
Everyday i woke up love sick in bed just thinking of you

We Pretended and we became in Denial

It started out a friends every thing was perfect
we enjoyed each other company like siblings
everything turned out fine
as we had promised not to love again after we had heart breaking
relationships that were based on lies.
one accident changed all our beliefs and hopes

It was just one kiss and everything that was a fantasy became real
it took a lot for me to know this was love
only small things meant a lot to get me through
Not a single day passed by not thinking about us
you laughter you moods change made me see
Either i am in denial for this burning feelings

It flatters me to see you happy
I never knew love was better the second time around until i meet you.
i wanna thank you for opening my eyes and show me love is real
Although this pretending that something is burning is not there
it is a plain lie we can stare in each other in the face
We no longer express how we fill because the kiss was just something special.

I am tired of sending you sms, and calling you on the phone
i am going to be a man about this and say it might scare you
or you can find it shocking but this words i have never uttered them
To anyone but i have to say i was in denial for too long but it comes
to this that this friendship is no longer working for me i want more
you captured me with you tenderness and i am in love with you.

when i said we needed space and you deserve someone better
that was a coward speaking and a hypocrite>
Love does not need big things to know is calling you
i love you enough i know i cannot give you what you need now
but promise is that your hopes and dreams i will fulfill
come and embrace our love for each other
i am madly in love with you
Everyday i woke up love sick in bed just thinking of you

This is Goodbye . . . .

i never knew i had a feable heart
not tell you what is it that has made me cold
being with you in the same bed every night
unable to look you in the eyes was that
Something between me and a friend has changed

the feelings we have for each other has taken a different turn
i am sorry to have had to tell you like this
the passion between me and you has turned cold and boring
The spark you had at first seem to have faded away
Sorry to have to say this is goodbye i have found someone new

i know and you can shwered your tears right now
What are going to do now that your lover has found something new
i have to go away i am leaving you with the house and its belongings
i am going away for a fresh start.
you can get on your knees all you want but i am going away

this is goodbye my sweetheart life does not have to stop for you
you deserve better than me i had this feeling you will get your prince charming.
the headache i had to see myself miserable in this house was too much.
they say second time around in love is charm.
you will forever be close in my heart

for all of my selfishness please forgive me for that
i can really imagine what you are going through
feeling betrayed by me this way i apologize for it
dont blamed yourself it was purely me you cause you this pain
bye bye my goodbye melody

Stay Don't Leave me

Lonely without you next to me
when you left me in this abandoned house all alone
when i followed you out of my house i lose the touch on my hands
i wanna hold on to it even you don't have any reason why we should try
i want to be the one you run to when problems arise

my holes are beside you wherever you go
in  this world of lies and deceit i find peace and love in your eyes
the burning flames of you light the dark path i work to
if you ever ever sick i want to be sick with you
If your ever get bored i want to be bored next to you

my love is inside you more than you could go
i can never remember life with you how it is
feels like thousand of years gone away with out you
i hear the angels singing promising i will be with you for ever fro this day
if you ever go away take me with you to that place you are going to

either way there no one you can run to beside me
if you ever lonely i want to be lonely too
Whatever may come in there road i want to be with you
through space and time until our stories fuses to shine
cause you know where my heart is

i rather go through pain that love puts us through
than spend a day with you
i know with you i can face the whole world without fear
love enough for both us to share it
if you ever leave can you please take me with you

The last 5 minutes i have . . .. . .

This may come as a shock to you but i have to say it
All those moments and laughter we had made me realized
that all though life is short but there is hope
Dreaming of you every night made me want to live my life
but i only have a short time remaining so i have to tell you this?

you may ask yourself why i have waited so long?
but the honest truth is that hurting your feelings was not the plan
there is a saying that when a man is about to die he things of the importance of life that he had wasted.
I know what i can say can make and brake your heart at the same time.
Things that i considered to be worthy where worthless to have.

i will not say you are beautiful because you know you are?
I will not give you complement because you got before leaving your house?
i will not say your are pretty you parents tell you that every time?
But i have one thing i am offering you now whether you accept it or not?
i will not mind it as i am about to run out of time.

i am offering words to you that you have never heard of them
i have no riches to shower you with them
i have words only poets dream of saying to their loved one
i have margical words only singers which hope they will sing them one day.
I have gift that only parents wished their children had

I cannot say i love you because i will not mean it
i can only say to you can you please be mine
i don't need you as a friend because i have many of them in my house
i only want to take a journey to your mind and understand you better
So that you thoughts and emotion i can help when you are in need
of me and of my love and attention to be with you  always

but only i wanted to say to you is . .  . . . . . (could finish with the conversion time run out before i had said)

What is separation really . . . .

I sit and wonder alone when i hear that people are separated
Always you will hear after 30 year of marriage when decided to separate and we thought lets remain as friends and go out to our favourite place every week.
Why bother separate if you want to remain as friends?
you could have said lets take a break not separate

It is like finding the person you loved the most hurt you intentionally and after that you said lets remain close for what.
If separation or divorce means lets remain as close friends
cheating will mean go ahead doing it will forever be friends
Separation has to mean we tried it did not work it was pleasure meeting you it is total over nothing or connection between us exist.

If the is something still burning between us why try and fix it.
If it is total not broken give it a chance to grow once more.
The love that makes us passionate to each other why waste it?
The chance that is there to regroup why not use it to save our marriage

What is the point of separation when we are much more in love?
We separate only if there is nothing left we can do for each other
and that burning flames is your eyes has died then we can go separate ways.
people have to different ways only where all option were exploted and none was much for use.
why waster money energy if after all has been done you will be friends?

different opinion of people for separation i find it odd and crazy
Then you will say we remain friends for the sake of our kids
Why use kids as porns in your games of chess
If i divorce it means is over no more friends this thing we call friends is when we are getting to know each other after we are history.
Separation mens you go your way i go my mine that's all there is.

Unexpected

The mysterious about life you can never know when you are happy
you might be happy but someone close to you on the other hand may be dying.
you can wake up feeling excited for the day ahead of you and then  a call may come in and disrupt your day.
you may leave you wife at home healthy and excited before you start your day you hear that she has passed away.

unexpected you are getting ready for a wedding day while in the alter someone stop the wedding and said that you wife to be is caring his child.
trusted honest husband you leave him in bad sick and you go to work ten minutes on the way you forgot your file you find him in bed with your neighbor who is also married as well.
your only child you kiss him good bye as he?she is getting ready for school
along the way a call said that you child is dead in a hit & run accident.

you send your child to church to learn about God and you hear that the trusted Pastor is abusing you child and others.
you expect your child to come home from varsity with a degree and she comes home pregnant with a lecture child.
you love someone for nine years and you are getting ready to propose to her and she tell you she has been cheating with your half brother.
A delivered sister is preaching to people to repent from their sins and leave moral lives but her on the other site she lives her secret life like a whore.

you are newly wed couple and both of you have never drank alcohol and then you hear one of you say i am going on a drinking spree this weekend.
how well do you know and trust your partner some have sacrificed so much and left their parents to be with their thought to be soul mate and got dumped in the last minute.
humans are like dried up trees never trust and put your whole life hope on them their are unexpected and like a passing weather.

A year alone . . .

i was more than i thought i would be
moments raced with destiny in cold mountain of Geneva
dreadful from the troubles i had passed by in time
there were always chances for a third time but was that enough
lasting forever was mechanism of the brain and mind

dont make me close my door as you will not entered again
putting your arms around me that was what i really needed
your love broke the barrier that stopped us from loving each other
the 80% of love i gave you and could accepts the 80% of love you were given me
I was afraid of being loved back but i loved giving you more love than should

Dear lovely priceless wife where you go to work and come back home
leave all of you politics outside the door of you job and dont bring it here
you mood swings of day in day out leave them where ever you should
i am getting tired of this constant arguments between us it gets no where
Or maybe you want me to divorce you on the spot that will not happen

Dear Hubby when you out with your friends and enjoying yourself to the limit
Dont forget you left me you wife inside this mansion alone
you stress problem leave them of your friends place because i dont tolerate shit
in my house if you what to cool down hit the shower and come back and talk like adults
Divorce it is not an option or solution you can go and hang your elf on a tree if you thinking
about and that i dont do it we communicate and resolve our marital issues

our love was not like war easy to begin but hard to let each other go
Problems were like a dialogue comes easy also easy to get rid of them
Love was like a disease to us we could keep our feeling from one another
Friends were like insects god time their swam in bad time the are all away from us
Our bonds and vows were like burning flames when face with temptation

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I have fallen in . . . .

I have fallen in love with the beauty of nature
I have fallen in love with a woman who respect her self
I've fallen near a bridge filling with high level of water
passing by like streams flowing close by me

I've seen people amazed by the sound of love turned blue
i have looked every where for my soul mate but could find one
i have been attracted by different types of woman but none of them stood up.
i made mistakes in life not one them was regrettable

I've been everywhere except where my heart should be
i travel alot searching for my hearts and thoughts what do they need
forgetting the answer lied deep inside me
Wind blow me in all direction peace came to me like a thief in the night

popularity brought misery as life became unpleasant for me
the gifts that i received could bring me pleasure out of it
As time went bye the loneliness in my house was not bearable
there was an aroma missing in the house which bought life

the matter of the feeling exposed this broken mind in public
the soft heated person was not really doing great about fallen
The truth and the fact is that this thing i have fallen for is that
I have fallen outside my own bed and that i cant wake up from it

I have fallen in . . . .

The woman who gave up everything to be with a coward

I find you working up as a maid
i saw how beautiful you were and said nothing
I promised to make you famous but got caught up

in this world
you called but i could not pick up the phone as i laid in hospital
you came and look for me but as you saw me you left in a hurry
thinking i had fooled and lied to you

i was a star myself so famous everyone wanted a piece of me
until i became a slavery to alcohol which took my fame to dust
but i saw that you were gifted more than me and you could be a star
eventual i won you over you quit you joy as a maid going for your dream
i got you connected to the people in charge and a greed to be you teacher
when it was time to show what you had you got scared and lock yourself in

But i begged you and told you to do it for me because .. . . . . .  . (crying)
I love you and you came out of the closet and did what i had taught you
company bosses signed you and you went to become successful and a star
When you won you first biggest award i went and sat at the bar with a bottle.
full of booze and i told myself i cant let you be in love with me
Cause i was going to drag you down with me and i left you

At my house yo came and ask me what was wrong i told you that
A drunken man like me was not good for you image and told you
to leave me alone as i was at peace that way being single
you cried and said i was with you in bad time and if i cannot be-
by your side in good time you will give up everything you had.
if you did not have by your side at all times
that moment when you told me that i realized i was evidently in love

your started missing you shows as you were caring for me
bosses told you to cut your losses with me and you said
this fame and everything i have because of this man i am in love with
it became clear to them when you said until i said i had enough of you
then you will pack your bags and leave me.
you mother ask you how can you stay with me while not married
the answer was you don't care what people said as you had feelings for me.

being a slave of alcohol i made one fatal mistakes of causing accident
you influence got me released from prison and your image got tainted
i could survive without alcohol i started stealing you own money
to help me with alcohol addiction i had.
then i made a solemn promise to you that i will be clean for you only
and became the new person for you my love
then i left saying i was going for small walk and will be back shortly

I took the the 30 minutes walk into a 11 high building nearby
Climbed the stairs and went to the  eleven floor and looked down there
and jumped down where my brain got scatted everywhere on the ground
the coward that was me could face my problem thought dead was my -only way and solution for my problems.
the coward took the easy option out for my own rest

I hated to see you coming to bail me out of prison
to see me lying in bed in the hospital that feeling made me unhappy
i did this for you so that i cannot be a burden to you anymore
i wanted you to be happy without me abusing you emotional
i know it my seem selfish of me to kill my self but there was no other way
never forsake your dream because of my sorry motive

The death woman final wishes

Too the one who will be talking over from me
This is what you have to know that since i am no longer alive
Is to for you to know that he loves you too much
Please take care of him as he is now alone in this world
No one to comfort him and to talk to him

This letter i have written for the one who comes after me
I now he is broken and blames himself for my death
he misses me like lion looking for its cubs
the pain he was in when i was ill i could not help him
if you reading this beyond unreasonable doubt he love you

I want you to know one important thing i am glad he has found you
I wish i could you have had the chance to meet you
i am glad and hope you feel the same way as he does
beside my handsome love you are the most precious thing thing in his life
Love him,care for him,strength him and make him laugh

i am not there now with him but in memories will forever be there
his heart is broken but my hope you can make him feel like a youth
Sometimes a man with out love is half a man but his devotion last for all
give him the extra love i could have not given him
he will be nothing if you also abandon him please love him

he might fool the world but his is hurt inside feel that gap inside him
rejuvenate him and make him fell special again
His eyes tell the story of a life time of joy and sadness
Sorry for you to be reading this letter but wherever i am at peace
To know you are the one for him and you will leave the life that_
will make you both happy and loving in every away
The time had come for me to depart from this world
Congratulation for being the important woman in his life

Love you

The feelings I have for you won't ever change
A life without you, I can't imagine
I will follow you over any range
Never ceasing my love or passion

In your hands and care my hearts been placed
Please hold my heart dear, careful not to break
Futures combined and not to be erased
Trouble trusting though this risk I will take

No matter what by your side I will stay
For always and eternity my love
Feelings grow stronger each and every day
With you my heart and soul sores like a dove

Now this poem is coming to an end
This small info of my feelings I've lend
Don't take this poem for granted for to attempt to tell my feelings will be hard to do again

As i have poured all my heart to you with this only and final poem
There is no other to let you know how i feel about you
and that the rainbow and sky i could hold back from you
The time has run out for you to know i love you

But the promise i had made to share my feelings with you
Will forever remain close to my heart
As time keeps on moving how a glance at the clock
how i smile at night seeing your face before me
but time stopped but the love and feelings cry out

Written by Megan D. Bullard & Oscar Stuta

Over

Youth is full of life, Age is filled with death
It ought to be cared for and looked after
After all these years i see tear drops of blood in my eyes
The bitterness of life has taken over its talls on me
As i wish to be young again filled with life

Love and laughter was merely madness in my life
So cure and punishment became one in my eyes
corruption won but honesty remained dominant
when wills of time change the faith in me drifted away with time
emotion left me stranded and sad in the dry weather

I was a typical old man who could not appreciate somethings in life
how i find myself alone and in misery over the years gone by
Casanova life could bring me happiness when i needed it
how i wish i could have apologized for my mistakes
How i look in the mirror everyday and time passes me

Death was not worth of tears
Death scared me in my lasting days as i could not find peace
my unkindness toward others took me to the resting place
There was no one close to me that hour came
i was no more than a rotten potato inside filled with anger

Too Little Too Late

I was lost all along trying to grow
when you walked out of that door
I knew you are the air that i breed
You are the more than diamonds and pearls
I wanted to thank you for the words I sing

The ink put on the paper could not be return
The chances blown could not be the same
The love that i played with went in front of me
But the gift of my magical words could not save us
The hope of a future together kept me going

Like a sick puppet i followed each way of your journey
But the believe and the passion i had kept me sane
Although it was too little too late for makeup of the lost time
Journey never ended as the beautiful nature kept me inspired

Creation in front of me showed me with positive thinking everything is possible

Words where not enough to bring you close to me
talking with everlasting words made you change route
Like a wolf i waited until evening to come to you
But when dark times close my mind the memories kept me going
The brain might be blocked or dead but joyful time will always remain

Greatest time as a writer showed that when the mind is blocked
go for a walk outside and see the lovely nature and read to get inspired
You will still be here tomorrow to learn and share the experience
Its now time to make change as we are still young
Find the inner you and settle down and inspiration will come knocking
As i know it time i had to go

Sounds of our voice

We love to talk or say i love you without thinking
We love to promise without fulfilling our agreement
We take things slightly that is good for us
We love to get married but after sometimes we give up
Why use words like will be together forever

There is nothing permanent in life
We love and plan the future but we have no control of it
This is a generation that does not value commitment
It is us that are lost when we are guided to the path of life
We turn away from the door of the light

Why do we have days that we cherish and celebrate
why not cherish the gift of life every day
It is Easter we fell compelled to go and celebrate the day
You will hear us saying he died for us so show and treat this day special
Why not celebrate it every day because of the ransom that set us free
From sin and slavery.

Why will our until death do us apart mean that
When will I love you be the meaning of the word
When will our you are the only one be the only person in our life
When will for  ever be that we include God to decide that
When will i promise this and that be fulfilled like that

It is great that we want to get married and promise to marry someone
When will we ever make sure that marriage is a covenent and not a temporally -
contract that will end any given day
will our yes or no mean that when it is our time to die
how eager and bored are we to learn the truth

happy is the expected mother of a new baby

Sad is the person waiting for something that will never come
Amazed is a woman about to walk down the isle
Filled with sorry is a person disobeying his parents
Pain is the labor of our lies
love is the creation within us created by our creator

Breath Taking Words

 Can you feel you emotion is pulling me back
caught in the middle highway road
it hold you close like the veins of the heart
is pulling closer to love me

Imaginary soul wandering in silence

just to the door as you thought you were moving away
just a little as you cried of thinking of letting this go
when silence melody draws you near the destination

Can get you out of my mind

wandering what you are up to do things

I was ready to love you again but the shock I met
in the bedroom drove me insane

As it was long since I saw you
seeing the feeling that we had before
made me realized that I still cared for you
even that we live our lives separated from each other

You were tired being called the only one

as time passed us by you saw the opportunity to-

move on without saying goodbye

far too long i could hold you closer to me

You never knew that love could feel this good

We walked right through the dessert but we still made it

It felt good to enjoy the finer things of life

But goodbyes could not save our dying relationship

The question Asked

will it ever matter if i had moved on with my life
will you ever cry if you found me cheating
what will you say if i told i was in love with your mother
Who will you go to if she felled the same way for me

Will you be in love with me if i had no good looks
Will you appreciate me if i was not learned
Will you still look at me if i became blind
Will you called out at me if i pass you hanging out with you girls-
and i looked like a street kid?
will you still kissed me if i had my lip chop out

Will you be faithful if i had to leave for a year?
Will you still tell me you loved me if i was paralyzed?
Will you still helped and love me if i was unemployed
Will you be with me until the end of time if you found out-
I had a disease that made me unable to do things?

this is the questioned we never asked our selves
Like a tumor in my mind i wonder
are the lady that will stick with me?
what attracted you from me is it the way i talk?
Or the way i am my looks my charm or money?
I keep wondering why the question never have explanation

What if we were sleeping together and you woke up-
and found out i was married what will you do?
What will you react if you herd i had kids outside our marriage?
Why is the heart never likes to rest for a day?
why the rumors take control of our lives?

I love the questions the give us perspective
what if tomorrow never came what will we do?
what if the chance did not come to ask this questions?

The piece of your heart

I took your heart
I promised to take care of it
when I couldn't,I was too proud to admit it

I was desperate to be loved by you
I wanted to hear you call my name
Even if you shoot me down in flames
That would have been fine

I needed your love as a desperate measure
I settled for less,because i wanted to be loved
U called me names and i pretended to be happy
I called you sweetheart even though you were not a man with the most
sweetest heart
at the end it was not only my heart that you took
u took more than a heart from me,only because I was desperate

I could move and do anything to make me forget you

I am glad that now i got you baby to a make me feel alright

the beauty of nature describes you of who humbleness

The colors of the rainbow paints of our blossoming love

i love when you whispered my name in the dark

How my heart gets excited when i see you smile

The center of my heart was you

the gold finger on your fingers was my warm care for you

Soul Mate

Be the sweetest memories i am taking with me

colors of the rainbow made you special

i hoped life treated kind and had your desired fulfilled 

I wish you love and happiness

Th song played on the radio reminded of m

The cologne on your clothes aroused my desire for you

All night i lie awake on our bed dreaming of you
Children around saw me crying holding you pictures in my hand

your kissess where like a red wine

your touches were like a new born baby

your anger was like a deadly venom poison

your smile was like and angel on the air

This lonely nights killed me since you parted for me

I look outside the window hoping you will appear again

I can hardly accept the fact that you are gone

the food taste bitter without you

how i missed the sound of your voice

how i miss the love with had for each other

how i miss the passionate love we used to do

you were my soul mate that cannot be replaced

you warm tender affection will never come again

your sweet rose smell of your breath

All i had hoped will accomplished i am glad we . .

were able to complished.

I don't regret that i had found someone like you in my life

we stick'ed to our vows now that death ha separated us

now the remaining fact i how i am going to have to live

without you.

you were my chocolate dellux

my crispy chicken

my tender affection

my shelter in cold weathers

my pain killer in suffering

my water when i was thirsty

my pillow to lie to when i was tired

The offer I have For you

I loved seeing you laugh and smile
I loved waking up knowing that I am going to see you
I loved talking to you and hearing you talk about yourself
I loved the cologne you put on yourself

But the was so much to say to you
But the when i saw you i could articulate any words
Seeing you with another man made me jealous
Bearing in mind someone coming taking you away
i could bear the thought of it happening

When you gave me the chance to express how i felt for you
I could do anything or move as i found myself frozen
with excitement and fear of how to say it
when I glance in your eyes it was like gazing at the truth
I could feel tepid within because of your love

There was much more to tell and do
When you said you were getting married and felt that
you were leaving something behind you could not do it
I was timorous and puzzled about the news
I could feel the heart beat of my heart increasing

Gazing straight to your eyes a tear drop felt from my eye
when you ask what was wrong?
I lied when i said it was nothing
I wanted to express myself to you and tell you how much
I loved you and that i wanted us to be lovers

But then your sudden news and excitement when you
shocked and kissed me and told me the thing that was missing
in your life it was me all along you have lived and wanted to tell
me how much you loved me and who could not do anything
until now that i was the only man who made you perfect

When you said you were in love with another person
I never knew you felt that way about another alternative
guy who made you feel extra exceptional

I never thought it will be me or it was me
i Thought you meant your fiance?
I could imagine more you were in love
with me and you had feelings for me

The only man who appreciated you and you felt like a woman
The man the made you see anything is possible
and dreams can be realities and more
But i saw pain in your eyes when i said . .
I will always be there for you in good and bad time

That when ever you need someone to talk too
i will always be by your side
just as i always have been and will forever be just a Friend
Only a Friend nothing more?
Yes a friend nothing more but remember i will always
love you as a friend that is what i have to offer
Then you broke down into tears and felt the pain
Sorry for everything this is my only offer

My Imagination running around

The cold summer night came that day
It spring into my heart like a viper
The thoughts were draining me in my sleep
I could shiver a pun in my chest
like clouds leaping a way from the sky

Headaches raged in my head
like a needle being put in the eye
the intimidating of myself in the mirror
gave me the worst stomach ache
present memories of life left me
with an answered questions

of why the drama and misery
the aghast and the stains left me with a mark
in my heart and mind and soul
I mistook the smiles for attraction
for friendship and love

I had forsaken the chance of being happy
for a fling that left me in the woods
I grieved for a heart that was not pleased
i wept for a small thing that could not last
I payed for being not obedient

I drowned my sorry in drunkenness
I hammered the success of being loved and lonely
Tears of happiness left me dry and wounded
The diamond of the house made me wanna die
inside of the house with its keeper

If died and had to be reborn i will choose this moment
with you, as i look in too your eyes i can hardly saw a word
The pulse stopped moving in my veins as the disorder appeared
total melt down came as a surprise when i dwelt on the past
Chastity became casualties for memories

False Pretences cost us the joy of life
free willingness of the mind started to appear
when your hope wants you to fall in love
let the sorry release the feelings of love
as their free giving me hopes of imaginations

Love so free why don,t it let me decide for it
give me sadness of joy
make me complete as all men left for guarded
like you cannot denier it for anything
gone to early for a moment in life and time

The Pain

The pain of happiness is sadness
you said I punished you for loving me
but I punished you for cheating on me
you said I hate you cause you are the one meant for me
I hated you cause you played with my feelings

you said you had love for me
I only saw regret in your eyes
you said I have never loved you
I cherished and embrace your love for me

when you were I’ll n sick I was not there
but I have been with you for the first time you started to be ill
you accuse me of causing you the pain
I only made you laugh and forget your problems

you said I was not faithful
but each time you came from work I was there to attend you
you said I am divorcing you cause I have seen someone else
I am doing it so that you have something to keep you going with your life
you said I never understand you

You never understood the true meaning of love
that I had for you and desired for you to see
because you were busy with things that broke
our relationship in the first place

DON'T look at me like you can really see through me
For in the end you only see what YOU want to see
I'm NOT the girl in the mirror baby, I'm NOT even close
Why can't you see? I'm NOT the one you chose
The girl in the mirror is only a disguise

No matter how hard you try to pretend otherwise
We are stranger's still, YOU and I
You won't admit, you don't really wanna give up the lie
Ignorance is naught but a fool's paradise
It'll come crashing when I come to collect my prize
So laugh while you can, go on laugh till you cry

There's no escape for you why even bother to try?
Let's take this slow make it last a while
Change the rhythm of my conventional style
You're worth the risk why not take a chance

so emotional thoughts changed the behavior of the mind
you forget the nature of love and pain
like a beautiful mirror you saw yourself in two
but could not appreciate reality

By Oscar Stuta & Tara Solomons

Jealous Over Fact

It was this day that i felt i should take the journey to you heart
because you head was full of illusion and myths
you said i was cheating on you and have fallen in love
I asked you what made you say that?
because my behavior has changed

i was not the same person you had feelings for
i looked at you with amazement in to you eyes
although you tried lowering your gaze from me
i saw right through you and smiled
because for the first time in my life i saw you were
obsessed with me but not in love

you said in anger i was crazy and abused you trust
and that i have moved from you to a rich person
all along i was waiting for you to ask me who is this i have
fallen in love with
but jealous burned through your mind

filled with all kind of sad things

each moment and question you asked yourself
was I the one cheating on you or it was you playing
with my feelings because you had a friend
who made you special from the rest of the world

the person that you said i was cheating on you
and have fallen in love with is . . .  . .
her name is the one and only  . . . . .
you fool because the change of behavior was you
as i am in love with only you
the person that i am cheating with is you

you choose to follow your friends advise
and left me stranded for your attention
i could not have gone out and get someone new from me
as i am your only first and last lover you will ever had

The letter to you

As the air is coming out of me
as the time has finally come so utter this word
I am leaving you now it was not you
It was me the love i had for you was not appreciated

I have fallen in love with someone else the love
i showed her she appreciate
the things i buy for her she loves them
She is not quick to judge an act

I am sorry you feelings are hurt
I am sorry you trust is broken
I am sorry you emotions were played with
I am sorry that i do not deserve you enough

You played with my heart and feeling's
you wondered away all alone
apologetic because i was trapped in your love
i was a slave for your affection
a prisoner for your support

i wounded my self for you desires
i pierced my self in two for your friendship
i wrote the name of you in my heart
i am sad that i wasted my time with you
i am glad i found someone special close to you

she was there for me when i needed you
she supported me in hard times
she gave me comfort in times of need
she showed me the true meaning of love

I am the one to say to you i am sorry
we cannot carry on just like we used too
As i have fallen in love with my friend
tears my roll down you cheek
of surprise and shock

but she has stolen my heart and swept me off my feet
i write this letter  to tell you when you read it
you will find outside it was not you it was me
as we were meant not to be together

as i was not made for you and you not for me
to clear say it is over between us
i appreciate what we had and cherished together
but i do not love you anymore the love i had for you
is over and done with

sorry i waited so long to tell you this
the courage did not drive me enough to you
but i have fallen for my friend
sorry with love yours truly
former love XX

Angel

It is so sad that you left me
i could not break through
its so sad that you were leaving
it took time to know you
no matter how hard you tried too put me aside

i spilled you out like a hot coffee
like a used tool i trowed you out
the blood in you eyes made me realised my mistakes
of how could i have lead my Angel get away
without wings you were always optermistic about everything
your open minded drawed me close to you

our past mistakes could not determined our future
the current dillema made me blind from you love
but what i wanted to tell you then was . . .
how much i loved you and my formal goodbye
but no words needed to be exchanged as i knew then

for how sorry i was for what had happened
i will never forget that night how i hurt you
i know i said i am sorry and will make it through
i was sad that you were leaving as i was hurt too
when i am no more will this words be the last thing you think of me

like a disease descended upon me you were no more
tears rolling down my cheek will never bring you back
the love i wanted to show you will never be the same
how ironic i wanted to whisper to you ears
how lovely i wanted to kiss your lips

how bitter my heart became when you were gone
you were my shooting stars
my moon and universe but you left to soon
my Angel, my chocolate deluxe, and sugar cane
how lonely i have become since you left me alone my Angel

who knew life could cause such tumoil

Emotionless

What I did behind closed door was something terrible
I kept telling myself it will be over
like a drug it consumed me daily always on my mind
i had not regrets of what i did whats so ever
but i had a guilty conscience of what i was doing

i wanted to pray for it to end
i felt compiled not to quit it
like a hopeless woman i let myself fall for it
i needed someone to talk to
but i had no one to reveal my secret too

i kept lying to myself saying it was over
but i kept going there after a while
i was like an angel to the people who saw me
but inside me the was a devil i could not leave behind
As i had deceived so many with my words and charms

The were easy victims falling to my trap as a lured them in
the could not resist the words i spoke to them
I was a devil that wore Prado in the eyes of the world
I loved them
Cheated them
Broke their trust
but i never laid the hand on them

I used to apologise to them but the conscience died
The forgave me many times but i lied to myself
saying no one saw what i was doing
but that was the mistake i made which later
turn out to be vital and dangerous for me

but i never loved someone to pass the time away
i was dedicated to love a person until i got stuck in the cross road
i believed in honesty and the truth
until this girl came into my life and made me turn my back to my family

i knew what type of person she was still i went and fell for her
even after i was warned about her after i found out that the was something wrong
with her and his attitude but she told me it was too late for my family to accept me
then i said to her okay i am stuck with you forever
but the edge to get home came running through my mind like a lighting

one day i went back home and i asked for forgiveness not knowingly
the welcomed me and forgiven me of all the wrongs i did
Then i knew what that devil try to trick me so that i cannot return to
my friends and family above all the great almighty God

lessons in life regret the mistakes and ask for forgiveness

The Heart

My heart ache when i felt the pain inside me
i felt remorse when i saw tear drops from your eyes
i cried when the door was locked behind me
like a puppet i saw nothing good from you

a blade pieced me through the heart
words were like used sword cutting to the joints
vocabulary words used could not bring him back
platters used for combination kept braking each time

ironical two hearts that were meant to be one
tore its self apart like the one day winter time
when we were in gross in passionate love
that we had our affection showed

i started closing my eyes hoping you will touch my heart
one moment of prayer thought it will keep you near
hoped you will not be far away but a hurricane came
and you were forgotten in my hear like you never existed

tear of misery and regret followed me each time
the chance to say i love you again disappeared in a second
one moment to hold you close in my heart vanquished in minutes
the last kiss goodbye was far away in my mind

how i lingered  for one moment in time
how the words you were the one kept them hidden in my lips
blazing fires of memories burned me like a curse
but i did not have enough control of the heart
the heart was i mystery thing that i could not help
achieve its desires

Apple of the world

Remember when the argument broke between us 

That moment you said you lost the precious thing

you loved the most and that you cannot bring it back again

prince charming came and swept you off to paradise

but i had let you go as i saw you had drifted away from

our commitment and marriage

once again i thought about the decision and promise we had made

but nothing came through for us as each of us had taken to much

from the relationship that we could not move ahead with it

like a deaf man you played with my soul
like a child you took away my youth

like a snake your venom killed me quick

like an orphan you used me and then spite me out

a woman in labour the pain you caused me was to much to bear

almost like a cloud my world you took away without a word

you were flying higher left stranded between a single bridge
the love you had was like a charity waiting to benefit

like a Carmel you beat me up but i stood strong in your anger
was I a fool to have loved you so much and got myself
laugh at by other guys?
was it my humbleness that made you loved other men more than me
was it my kindness that made you sleep with my best friend

was it a crime to have given you more than chances required
was it the jealous of helping children out that made you turn yourself into a mat
i have been bitter, sad, angry about what you did to me
because of our daughter i tolerated you enough but now
it is over pack your things and get the hell out of our life
will never want to see the mattress you turn yourself into it
your words tasted like blood

when you gone we got a peace of mind  

When i am lonely

The relapse came to me like a thief in the night
i became hopeless in overcoming it
i did not seek help in time of need
i thought all a lone i could manage it

why is it when i am sad i always think about you
when the loneliness is there i can do it with out you
why is it when i laugh i forget that you were always there for me
the price that you will not pay with you life for me

every time when i go to sleep i wake because i miss you
i cannot deny the way that i love
never the let you go away from me
remember how we made the day that will never part

what if the apology did not work for the mistake
is the a second chance that will last forever
the deal that said will never lie and part why is it
so empty without you by my side
what if i called you again to try and work it out

why is it that i can do without you beside me
why is it when i hear you name something inside get filled
with joy and happiness just for your name
remember what i had whispered in your ears
and said is there something forever

the air i breath is you
the food i swallow is you happiness
you made it work but you parted from me without
a word who do you think will lift me up when i am down
who will love me like you did
who can change my sadness into tears of joy
who will wipe tho tears away from my cheek's

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