Playing hard to get

She started to shake inside.
Felt sick with anger and distrust.
Now that the culprit that broke her heart was back in town.
The past memories were clouding his judgment.

Neither do I care.
As a far, I am concerned the past is over . . Dead . . Finished.
She was immature and experienced to believed to be in love and that it will last forever.
Thoughts she didn't want to acknowledge started to surface.
When he left her she thought she was part of his life plan.
When he uttered I love you that he meant he would always love her.

There is no reason to start over again.
She could still smell the scent of his skin.
When she closed her eyes she could hear the sound of his breathing echoing in her ears.
She thrilled to the knowledge that her touch excited him.
How treacherous her heart made her to be.
Recalling the slightly rough sensation pleasure of delicate of friction caressing her lips.

It was him who made it hard for her to be loved again.
Because of him, she distrusted her own judgement.
One of the hardest things to believe is that love is synonymous with desire.

When you have realised that you are depriving yourself of happiness.
Due to the lack of moving on and facing reality.
That you are actually in love with the person that you dread to hate so much.
When the only solution is to admit to love him and find joy.

Why did you he not utter the words?
In fairy tales is always the man expected to make moves.
But men aren't Gods.
There are only human with their feelings.
They suffer from all sorts of doubts, fears that we woman experienced.
They need the comfort of knowing they are wanted.
Chosen and loved plus valued.

I played hard to get cause I was scared of my own feelings.
That you will find me vulnerable and weak.
The love I have for you has overwhelmed me to forget the past things you did to me.
That I cannot leave
That you mistake no longer matter and forget them.
Because it's only my heart and emotions that you have touched that draws me to you.
No man alive can do that touch my soul rather than my body.🌹🌹🌺🌺

this world without you.

infatuation

When you mistake a desire for love.
Getting a feeling that it will last forever.
Sidelining all of your friends. 
Everyone becomes an enemy when they tried to advise you.
Paranoia turns to reality.

Like an ocean wave, you are tormented.
Like a side dish, you are stranded without an escape.
When family turns to a foe.
Infatuation takes over your whole life.
Like a burning fire tears stuck under the eyelet.

When hope and dreams are buried under the mud.
Promises are broken and trust has vanquished.
No one isn't here to help and rescue you.
When that desire has been fed you find you were played.
Momentary pleasure is satisfied.
No one to call or talk to.
Innocent stolen through deceiving and lying.

When your own voice scares you.
When your pride and ambitions are no longer important.
Time is lost and wasted and you are blaming yourself.
Realizing a pro mocked your hair with trickery.
So heaven and earth you were promised are no longer valid.
Like a rubbish trash, you are tossed aside

on dry land.