Running after memories.

What is so special about this?
I mean writing poetry?
Every day sending it to different strangers?
All over the globe and to unknown readers?

The truth is that I met someone on that day.
That is why I write every day of my life.
To seek refuge and grace at the same.
Pardon for every day mistakes.

To ask for forgiveness.
When I chose my career over our relationship.
Apologies for each daily mistakes that could be taken back.
To say sorry when I hurt her and did have the guts to own up to the problem.
Most of all to ask forgiveness when I brought woman to her house for my own entertainment.

To beg mercy when she was praying for my protection and safety in was busy lying with another woman.
To plead for a second chance for my in maturity.
I want to say sorry when I forgot to tell her how much I loved her....
Assuming me that she will remain with me for eternity.
But I was totally wrong.
When she passed away in lost all that time.

That why wise people usually say the time is now!
I'f you want to love do it now!
If you want forgiveness ask it now!
If you want a relationship go for it now!
Or else you will sing "in my time" and find your self regretting you missed chances.
To all you people out there in a relationship, call or send a message to your partner tell her how much you love them.
To all of you wanting to have someone in your love pray about it and have patience about it.
You don't want to rush into something after getting married.
Then true love knocks at your door.

Cause there is no love that begins after marriage.
Love starts right now and it never ends.
When last did you utter the words 'I love you'
Cause all I have now is memories.
Running after them like an antlete. 🌹🔥🔥😭

Uniqueness of love

We felt in love when we we're kids.
Our bond was unbreakable.
The feelings we had was out if these world.
But strangely we grew up apart.

The love kept growing stronger.
The bliss kept blossoming.
The fire made the passion to keep burning.
I could believe you waited for me.

Your mother request ed too much bridal price.
She had a stronger influence on you.
She whispered lies in your ears.
You were torn between me and her.
Eventually you choose her over me.

Now that you are getting married.
To the person you have zero love for him.
I lead you to your alter holding your hands.
Love will make you do strange things.
The love i had for you wanted to celebrate with you.
Although I died inside while I lead you to your groom.

I could just let you go.
Cause my feelings for you never perished.
The keep burning even now.
I wish I had a knife that can switch off what I feel for you.

I am stuck to move on and start a new life as well.
It's you that I only see.
I need your love to move on.
They say time is a healer of pain but it could not bring you back.
The fastest way to kill a person other than a bullet is to fall in love.
And have the one you put your hope, feelings and dreams to piece it and distribute to the entire world.

I love you and I gave you away to your new husband.
I was honoring your wishes.
The uniqueness of love us that the is no escaping it.
The only way is to go the dam and drown there by myself.
You left my heart bleeding on the ground. 💘💔😟😧

Untitled

Your face is beaming.
Inside I am dying to see you succeed.
I don't have a reason why I want you back but I just do.
Now that you so opened and trusting.

Now that I am back standing in my side-chick spotlight.
Cause I don't have a heart to face you.
I had vouched I will never let tear drops roll down your cheeks.
But I forgot I am human and I make mistakes.
Which I am afraid to face the consequences of my actions.

I lash out so much lately cause I"ve been self pity on my own.
Since I dream about stories they will write when I am dead.
All the things I long to hear about love is you.
The say the fastest way to kill a person other than bullet is love.
Since I am so far away I stare in the windows.
I long to take the journey through your mind.
To see you inner deepest thoughts.

When I close my eyes is you that I am thinking of.
You and me we used to sip wine and kill time.
Try to fix the mystery between us.
I miss those moment I let pass me by.
I want to steal a piece of time.
To return to the way things where.

Say something don't give up on me.
I will be the one if you want me to be.
I will have sold the moon to be next to you.
I remember every little thing.
The scent you left on the pillow.
Your kiss that was soaked in wine.

What if I tell you there is no fixing me.
Everyone has tried failed dismally.
Can you still love me anyway.
My dreams are a billionaire away from here.
I pray that you love what I do.
What if I am half crazy.
I don't know what is love.
But if this what we are having I don't want it to sleep away.

Just the other day I wrote everything down to say to you .
In case you did not know but I am crazy about you.
Plus I am in love with you even if I don't say it all the times.
That kiss did something to me.
I will be mad if I say I can live without you.
You got all of me.
I am nothing without your love.🔥🌹

The heart

My heart is never at peace when I see you crying.
It feels so real and painful gazing straight in your eyes.
I am afraid for you own sake.
My heart is like an opened highway.

I don't want any preacher to tell me your mind.
I just want you to look me in the eye.
My slowly heart beat is only for you.
I can't stare at another woman cause the face shows you.

I closed my eyes and picture you resting on my lab.
Since no one is right or wrong with how the feel.
I just find a reason to be strong in your warm embrace.
You used to leave to say you love me.

These are our words.
Our words are our thoughts.
I beg for you heart.
I steal for you.
I plan to recapture your smiles again.

Sorry I missed your birthday.
My heart was plundering in a mud.
After I saw you standing with another person.
I could contain the rage jealous I felt in that instance .
I will give anything to wipe the slate clean again.

I need you like musian needs lyrics.
I want you like a child need breastfeeding to be alive.
Hope you will love me like a mother and baby very for her new born baby.
So that I can get on my knees like a pastor praying for the mass.

This heart of mine smells like you cheap perfume.
That still drives me mad like a lunatic.
My heart us hopeless with out you in it.
🌹🌷🌹💍

Leaving in sin.

I am not broken like an arrow.
I don't need no diamonds to make you mine.
I just want you to look me in the eye.
Can you baby tell were do I fit in?
This love they call it sin.

Can't wait to kiss you goodnight.
Leaving on our own the world call it sin.
Where do we fit in?
We guilty for being lovers.
Go on the chapel and get married to me cause we cannot go on leaving in sin.

I close my eyes and picture you and me.
It's seems like there a lot going on.
Hearing your voice reminds me of that place.
Cause you give love a great name.
Will give anything my blood and skin to stop you from going.
I will please you.
Promise to never leave you until the end of time.

I hold and love you.
I give all my needs for you.
If you read it all today.
If you will be in these arms tonight.
Guess you wanted to secret say goodbye.
I was not there when you were happy
I was not there when the pillow was soaked with your tears.

You left a drowning in my tears.
You will not be there to save me.
Words are not enough to do what love can do.
I will not promise you tomorrow.
Will bow down in front of you if you will be mine.
Tired leaving in this uncertainty of love.

As my broken heart heard you crying a thousand tides.
You said your love was suicide.
You swimming off a shore with my heart.
I pray constantly for one more chance with you.
Now we no longer have a hidding place.
Because I am bowing to yesterday.
Running out time to be close to you.

When you breath will be the air that comes out.
When you sleep i will be your pillow.
When you wake up i will be your mooning sunshine.
I did not mean to miss your last bus.
I want to be last cab that takes you home.
Even die for you.
I know you loved spending time with me.
My heart is burning wanting to be out.
🤔🌷🌺🌹

Love is you.🌷

It's raining in my heart.
Flowing deep inside me.
Drowning in my soul.
Silent in this fire but will not burn away.

Love has turn me into a believer.
Holding on without dreaming.
Love is all I knew before I fell.
Like a stream I let it carry me into the ocean.
Dancing in this fire but will not turn away.

Through the darkness can you hear me.
Calling for the love to silent my pain.
Clinging on the touch of you skin.
Waiting to be prisoned by your love.
Silents rushing through me like a echoing wave.

Love will keep me strong.
It is all I want but with you by my side.
Crippled me with your touch.
It's has been raining in my heart for weeks.
Waiting on your fire not to burn me.
Waiting to be carried to the deepest place in the sea.

You turn my sour day to gloomy mornings.
My past keep hold on me but you were there to take me to new length with your glowing love.
You passion and kisses where all I needed to survive.
Love has sustain me even now with me and you growing together.
Only the dark pit which is death can separate us.
Love is all that we need to keep growing old together 💔🌹🔥

Last night stranger

You will meet a whole lot of people.
Some greater than others.
Some sweeter than honey. 
Others sour more than vinegar.
Humble as snow falls.

But there is that stranger you met.
Who turned your whole life to a new meaning.
Using small gestures.
Turning you into a believe.

Wondering why did he come into your life.
When you are with him you forget that the world exist.
That pain and sorrows have no meaning to you.
Feeling that there more to life than worries.

Then of a sudden he has to depart from your life.
When you start accustomed to him.
Then you get mixed feelings.
Running a marathon inside your mind.
You end up saying he was a stranger send especially for you.

But you can't go to sleep.
He is constantly in your mind.
Thinking is this love of fever that you are feeling.
But there are no answers you getting .
He was a last night stranger passing by.
Which he took your heart and pain with him.
Only if you had a chance or day to share with him.
But you home has blossomed from a meeting with a stranger. 🤔🌺🌹

Love your Good byes

I sat by the door alone.
Hoping you will call just to hear your voice,
Promised to give you friendship for eternity,
Being at your side forever when you needed a shoulder to cry on.

Landed you my ear to whisper your deep secrets.
When tears started to roll down your cheeks I comforted you with laughter.
When someone took you heart for granted I amended it with Happy ending Romantic movies.
When you felt unloved and wanted I supported you with my presence daily.

Now that I have found someone for myself you want to keep me as a prisoner for yourself.
Finally I am happy you turned yourself into a blackmailer.
Now that I am happily married man you are my family stalker.
You want to possess and own me for you own sick thoughts.

You have already forgotten I never abandoned you.
My wife knows about the promises I made to you and I intended to keep it.
That will be there when you needed me the most.
But I have an obligation towards my family, that takes priority
You are just bitter and jealous for no reason.
All along I thought were best friends nothing more.
I keep wondering what is it that you want from me.

Insults if they came my way from you would have tolerated them.
But directed to my wife you have crossed the limit and boundaries of friendship.
This is where I am ending it all the promises and the so - called friendship we had.
Most of my life I had confused you with happiness and laughter including joy of life.
But I neglected myself in the process of making you happy as a friend.

Just wanted to let you know for our old time sake friendship.
That Little Catherine my daughter that's her name.
Has your mouth and lips.
Know that I loved your Good bye
Take care hope you will find someone more than me in life.

The mask

If I was a blind man could you give the curtsey.
Could you blush to me like our first meeting.
Will you grap and hold my hand tight.
Can I learn on you for strength.

Now that the accident has occurred.
My strength and stamina had faded away.
I can even bath myself anymore.
I can't walk properly now that I am blind.

Used to dream about you night and day.
I have become a burden to you.
You have turned me in a mockery of a man.
No longer man enough for you.

You wore a mask and it perfectly suited you.
I could uncover the woman behind it.
You have worn me out emotional.
Have abused and tarnished my dignity as your husband.
I am like a garbage in your eyes waiting to be thrown away.

What has occurred to the woman I felt in love with?
Where has you compassion vanished into?
Your respect you took it outside the window.
You left me stranded in the room alone unable to help myself.
I got cremated when you left me for another woman.😟😟🔥🔥

Black bird

Why is sorry overheating my heart.
Heart become loneliness.
Mouth uttered painess. 
How could I thrive in this life?

I was born bounded by chains of tears and headaches.
I could never love anything in this world.
Had never been taught from birth how to do so.
I was castrated to missery and anguish of this life.

No one can tame the crying every night alone in my bed.
Can any know the Thoughts of my heart.
Do people exist that can put me out of my hopelessness.
I commit suicide every day in my sleep but find myself awake every morning.

Black bird your mother was loneliness.
And I was a cheap and unwanted trash.
They said love is beautiful and every thing it holds nothing back.
But I am bounded by chain of poverty and illiterate.
When nothing comes right.

I try to sing words never come out.
I scream lounder than anything but the sound is isolated in my body.
All I have seen and still see is cruelty that has blinded my mind.
It has become a lordship of my life.
Black bird you cannot fly.

Black bird there is no hope for you.
Black bird the voice inside has kept you a prisoner.
Black bird you are slave of your own doing.

If you could believe

Headache begin like an ocean of sorrow that u keep drowning in.
Don't know should I reach for my cellphone or wait for your call.
Thinking it's a waiting game between us.
Things that keeping us glued is our bond.

You make me live when I want to commit suicide.
When I want to cry you make laugh.
When I frown you make me smile.
Your eyes are my witness to the love it have for you.

You are my was.will be my future.
You believe in me when no one else does.
I am afraid people will notice and spread rumours that I need you more than words.
When I am with you time passes by like a fly.

You've turned my life around.
When you call me if begin to blush.
When you drop the phone I begin to smile alone.
Then my face starts to glow because of you.

I love you more than you can conceive.
Dream of you day and night.
I need you more than you can apprehend.
Hope my life can remain this way.
The present feels like the past.

I don't want it any other way.
You love me like a new born.
You kill me with kindness like there is no other.
You protect me like an egg.
You shelter me like a refuge.
If only you could believe. 🌹🌹🌹

Caught in the cross fire

When you are stuck in a crossroads.
Thinking you had it all.
What went wrong?
Did you become too pride and haughty looked down on your relationship.

Was it a moment of temptation that lead you are stray.
Missing the cuddling?
The romantic pillow fights?
The blindness disrupted you soul mate to sleep away from your palms .

That moment of weakness can brake or make us strong.
The company we keep influence our choices.
you found yourself in love with two different people you cannot choose one of them.
Perhaps you are more in love with your friend than your partner.

Life always brings us to the crossover bridge.
It's either we gamble with our hearts or we get stuck in a endless and emotional draining relationship.
Even though people might not like our decision but we have responsibility to keep.

Before regrettably take a leap of faith.
See where is this stream of love taking you too.
Hopefully when you are staring on your roof top house you can simply say I took a chance with my feelings and felt the glimpse of love.
Regret is a waste of talent and time including emotions.
When the dust has settled feel the joy that love has to offer.

Born to choose

I choose you because I see the devil and angel in your eyes.
I choose you because deception are sharp as a struggle when we lie to each other.
I choose you because when we deceive for effection it's a need to know basis.
I choose you because there is not greater love like a woman falling for me.

I choose you cause you make me laugh
I choose you cause you make me feel complete
I choose you cause I have no regrets
I choose you cause I have no where to go

I choose you because I feel loved
I choose you because I am tired of staring the walls
I choose you because you make me question my existence.
I choose you because there is no one else.

I choose you cause someone else loves you
I choose you cause I am jealous of the person that has your heart.
I choose you cause you are a better friend.
I choose you cause you made someone realise that love is everything.
I choose you because when I talk to you in get butterflies in my tummy.

I choose you cause you are somebody wife
I choose you cause you my fantasy
I choose you cause I can never have you.
I choose you cause you are equipped to forgive.

I choose you because I will wiped all your tears from you cheeks.
I choose you because you will never face sorrow and pain.
I choose you because you are someone parents
I choose you because you will never be mine.
I choose you because you are only a dream in my mind.
I choose you because I want to display you around the world.