What is separation really . . . .

I sit and wonder alone when i hear that people are separated
Always you will hear after 30 year of marriage when decided to separate and we thought lets remain as friends and go out to our favourite place every week.
Why bother separate if you want to remain as friends?
you could have said lets take a break not separate

It is like finding the person you loved the most hurt you intentionally and after that you said lets remain close for what.
If separation or divorce means lets remain as close friends
cheating will mean go ahead doing it will forever be friends
Separation has to mean we tried it did not work it was pleasure meeting you it is total over nothing or connection between us exist.

If the is something still burning between us why try and fix it.
If it is total not broken give it a chance to grow once more.
The love that makes us passionate to each other why waste it?
The chance that is there to regroup why not use it to save our marriage

What is the point of separation when we are much more in love?
We separate only if there is nothing left we can do for each other
and that burning flames is your eyes has died then we can go separate ways.
people have to different ways only where all option were exploted and none was much for use.
why waster money energy if after all has been done you will be friends?

different opinion of people for separation i find it odd and crazy
Then you will say we remain friends for the sake of our kids
Why use kids as porns in your games of chess
If i divorce it means is over no more friends this thing we call friends is when we are getting to know each other after we are history.
Separation mens you go your way i go my mine that's all there is.

Unexpected

The mysterious about life you can never know when you are happy
you might be happy but someone close to you on the other hand may be dying.
you can wake up feeling excited for the day ahead of you and then  a call may come in and disrupt your day.
you may leave you wife at home healthy and excited before you start your day you hear that she has passed away.

unexpected you are getting ready for a wedding day while in the alter someone stop the wedding and said that you wife to be is caring his child.
trusted honest husband you leave him in bad sick and you go to work ten minutes on the way you forgot your file you find him in bed with your neighbor who is also married as well.
your only child you kiss him good bye as he?she is getting ready for school
along the way a call said that you child is dead in a hit & run accident.

you send your child to church to learn about God and you hear that the trusted Pastor is abusing you child and others.
you expect your child to come home from varsity with a degree and she comes home pregnant with a lecture child.
you love someone for nine years and you are getting ready to propose to her and she tell you she has been cheating with your half brother.
A delivered sister is preaching to people to repent from their sins and leave moral lives but her on the other site she lives her secret life like a whore.

you are newly wed couple and both of you have never drank alcohol and then you hear one of you say i am going on a drinking spree this weekend.
how well do you know and trust your partner some have sacrificed so much and left their parents to be with their thought to be soul mate and got dumped in the last minute.
humans are like dried up trees never trust and put your whole life hope on them their are unexpected and like a passing weather.

A year alone . . .

i was more than i thought i would be
moments raced with destiny in cold mountain of Geneva
dreadful from the troubles i had passed by in time
there were always chances for a third time but was that enough
lasting forever was mechanism of the brain and mind

dont make me close my door as you will not entered again
putting your arms around me that was what i really needed
your love broke the barrier that stopped us from loving each other
the 80% of love i gave you and could accepts the 80% of love you were given me
I was afraid of being loved back but i loved giving you more love than should

Dear lovely priceless wife where you go to work and come back home
leave all of you politics outside the door of you job and dont bring it here
you mood swings of day in day out leave them where ever you should
i am getting tired of this constant arguments between us it gets no where
Or maybe you want me to divorce you on the spot that will not happen

Dear Hubby when you out with your friends and enjoying yourself to the limit
Dont forget you left me you wife inside this mansion alone
you stress problem leave them of your friends place because i dont tolerate shit
in my house if you what to cool down hit the shower and come back and talk like adults
Divorce it is not an option or solution you can go and hang your elf on a tree if you thinking
about and that i dont do it we communicate and resolve our marital issues

our love was not like war easy to begin but hard to let each other go
Problems were like a dialogue comes easy also easy to get rid of them
Love was like a disease to us we could keep our feeling from one another
Friends were like insects god time their swam in bad time the are all away from us
Our bonds and vows were like burning flames when face with temptation

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I have fallen in . . . .

I have fallen in love with the beauty of nature
I have fallen in love with a woman who respect her self
I've fallen near a bridge filling with high level of water
passing by like streams flowing close by me

I've seen people amazed by the sound of love turned blue
i have looked every where for my soul mate but could find one
i have been attracted by different types of woman but none of them stood up.
i made mistakes in life not one them was regrettable

I've been everywhere except where my heart should be
i travel alot searching for my hearts and thoughts what do they need
forgetting the answer lied deep inside me
Wind blow me in all direction peace came to me like a thief in the night

popularity brought misery as life became unpleasant for me
the gifts that i received could bring me pleasure out of it
As time went bye the loneliness in my house was not bearable
there was an aroma missing in the house which bought life

the matter of the feeling exposed this broken mind in public
the soft heated person was not really doing great about fallen
The truth and the fact is that this thing i have fallen for is that
I have fallen outside my own bed and that i cant wake up from it

I have fallen in . . . .

The woman who gave up everything to be with a coward

I find you working up as a maid
i saw how beautiful you were and said nothing
I promised to make you famous but got caught up

in this world
you called but i could not pick up the phone as i laid in hospital
you came and look for me but as you saw me you left in a hurry
thinking i had fooled and lied to you

i was a star myself so famous everyone wanted a piece of me
until i became a slavery to alcohol which took my fame to dust
but i saw that you were gifted more than me and you could be a star
eventual i won you over you quit you joy as a maid going for your dream
i got you connected to the people in charge and a greed to be you teacher
when it was time to show what you had you got scared and lock yourself in

But i begged you and told you to do it for me because .. . . . . .  . (crying)
I love you and you came out of the closet and did what i had taught you
company bosses signed you and you went to become successful and a star
When you won you first biggest award i went and sat at the bar with a bottle.
full of booze and i told myself i cant let you be in love with me
Cause i was going to drag you down with me and i left you

At my house yo came and ask me what was wrong i told you that
A drunken man like me was not good for you image and told you
to leave me alone as i was at peace that way being single
you cried and said i was with you in bad time and if i cannot be-
by your side in good time you will give up everything you had.
if you did not have by your side at all times
that moment when you told me that i realized i was evidently in love

your started missing you shows as you were caring for me
bosses told you to cut your losses with me and you said
this fame and everything i have because of this man i am in love with
it became clear to them when you said until i said i had enough of you
then you will pack your bags and leave me.
you mother ask you how can you stay with me while not married
the answer was you don't care what people said as you had feelings for me.

being a slave of alcohol i made one fatal mistakes of causing accident
you influence got me released from prison and your image got tainted
i could survive without alcohol i started stealing you own money
to help me with alcohol addiction i had.
then i made a solemn promise to you that i will be clean for you only
and became the new person for you my love
then i left saying i was going for small walk and will be back shortly

I took the the 30 minutes walk into a 11 high building nearby
Climbed the stairs and went to the  eleven floor and looked down there
and jumped down where my brain got scatted everywhere on the ground
the coward that was me could face my problem thought dead was my -only way and solution for my problems.
the coward took the easy option out for my own rest

I hated to see you coming to bail me out of prison
to see me lying in bed in the hospital that feeling made me unhappy
i did this for you so that i cannot be a burden to you anymore
i wanted you to be happy without me abusing you emotional
i know it my seem selfish of me to kill my self but there was no other way
never forsake your dream because of my sorry motive

The death woman final wishes

Too the one who will be talking over from me
This is what you have to know that since i am no longer alive
Is to for you to know that he loves you too much
Please take care of him as he is now alone in this world
No one to comfort him and to talk to him

This letter i have written for the one who comes after me
I now he is broken and blames himself for my death
he misses me like lion looking for its cubs
the pain he was in when i was ill i could not help him
if you reading this beyond unreasonable doubt he love you

I want you to know one important thing i am glad he has found you
I wish i could you have had the chance to meet you
i am glad and hope you feel the same way as he does
beside my handsome love you are the most precious thing thing in his life
Love him,care for him,strength him and make him laugh

i am not there now with him but in memories will forever be there
his heart is broken but my hope you can make him feel like a youth
Sometimes a man with out love is half a man but his devotion last for all
give him the extra love i could have not given him
he will be nothing if you also abandon him please love him

he might fool the world but his is hurt inside feel that gap inside him
rejuvenate him and make him fell special again
His eyes tell the story of a life time of joy and sadness
Sorry for you to be reading this letter but wherever i am at peace
To know you are the one for him and you will leave the life that_
will make you both happy and loving in every away
The time had come for me to depart from this world
Congratulation for being the important woman in his life

Love you

The feelings I have for you won't ever change
A life without you, I can't imagine
I will follow you over any range
Never ceasing my love or passion

In your hands and care my hearts been placed
Please hold my heart dear, careful not to break
Futures combined and not to be erased
Trouble trusting though this risk I will take

No matter what by your side I will stay
For always and eternity my love
Feelings grow stronger each and every day
With you my heart and soul sores like a dove

Now this poem is coming to an end
This small info of my feelings I've lend
Don't take this poem for granted for to attempt to tell my feelings will be hard to do again

As i have poured all my heart to you with this only and final poem
There is no other to let you know how i feel about you
and that the rainbow and sky i could hold back from you
The time has run out for you to know i love you

But the promise i had made to share my feelings with you
Will forever remain close to my heart
As time keeps on moving how a glance at the clock
how i smile at night seeing your face before me
but time stopped but the love and feelings cry out

Written by Megan D. Bullard & Oscar Stuta