Sounds of our voice

We love to talk or say i love you without thinking
We love to promise without fulfilling our agreement
We take things slightly that is good for us
We love to get married but after sometimes we give up
Why use words like will be together forever

There is nothing permanent in life
We love and plan the future but we have no control of it
This is a generation that does not value commitment
It is us that are lost when we are guided to the path of life
We turn away from the door of the light

Why do we have days that we cherish and celebrate
why not cherish the gift of life every day
It is Easter we fell compelled to go and celebrate the day
You will hear us saying he died for us so show and treat this day special
Why not celebrate it every day because of the ransom that set us free
From sin and slavery.

Why will our until death do us apart mean that
When will I love you be the meaning of the word
When will our you are the only one be the only person in our life
When will for  ever be that we include God to decide that
When will i promise this and that be fulfilled like that

It is great that we want to get married and promise to marry someone
When will we ever make sure that marriage is a covenent and not a temporally -
contract that will end any given day
will our yes or no mean that when it is our time to die
how eager and bored are we to learn the truth

happy is the expected mother of a new baby

Sad is the person waiting for something that will never come
Amazed is a woman about to walk down the isle
Filled with sorry is a person disobeying his parents
Pain is the labor of our lies
love is the creation within us created by our creator

Breath Taking Words

 Can you feel you emotion is pulling me back
caught in the middle highway road
it hold you close like the veins of the heart
is pulling closer to love me

Imaginary soul wandering in silence

just to the door as you thought you were moving away
just a little as you cried of thinking of letting this go
when silence melody draws you near the destination

Can get you out of my mind

wandering what you are up to do things

I was ready to love you again but the shock I met
in the bedroom drove me insane

As it was long since I saw you
seeing the feeling that we had before
made me realized that I still cared for you
even that we live our lives separated from each other

You were tired being called the only one

as time passed us by you saw the opportunity to-

move on without saying goodbye

far too long i could hold you closer to me

You never knew that love could feel this good

We walked right through the dessert but we still made it

It felt good to enjoy the finer things of life

But goodbyes could not save our dying relationship

The question Asked

will it ever matter if i had moved on with my life
will you ever cry if you found me cheating
what will you say if i told i was in love with your mother
Who will you go to if she felled the same way for me

Will you be in love with me if i had no good looks
Will you appreciate me if i was not learned
Will you still look at me if i became blind
Will you called out at me if i pass you hanging out with you girls-
and i looked like a street kid?
will you still kissed me if i had my lip chop out

Will you be faithful if i had to leave for a year?
Will you still tell me you loved me if i was paralyzed?
Will you still helped and love me if i was unemployed
Will you be with me until the end of time if you found out-
I had a disease that made me unable to do things?

this is the questioned we never asked our selves
Like a tumor in my mind i wonder
are the lady that will stick with me?
what attracted you from me is it the way i talk?
Or the way i am my looks my charm or money?
I keep wondering why the question never have explanation

What if we were sleeping together and you woke up-
and found out i was married what will you do?
What will you react if you herd i had kids outside our marriage?
Why is the heart never likes to rest for a day?
why the rumors take control of our lives?

I love the questions the give us perspective
what if tomorrow never came what will we do?
what if the chance did not come to ask this questions?

The piece of your heart

I took your heart
I promised to take care of it
when I couldn't,I was too proud to admit it

I was desperate to be loved by you
I wanted to hear you call my name
Even if you shoot me down in flames
That would have been fine

I needed your love as a desperate measure
I settled for less,because i wanted to be loved
U called me names and i pretended to be happy
I called you sweetheart even though you were not a man with the most
sweetest heart
at the end it was not only my heart that you took
u took more than a heart from me,only because I was desperate

I could move and do anything to make me forget you

I am glad that now i got you baby to a make me feel alright

the beauty of nature describes you of who humbleness

The colors of the rainbow paints of our blossoming love

i love when you whispered my name in the dark

How my heart gets excited when i see you smile

The center of my heart was you

the gold finger on your fingers was my warm care for you

Soul Mate

Be the sweetest memories i am taking with me

colors of the rainbow made you special

i hoped life treated kind and had your desired fulfilled 

I wish you love and happiness

Th song played on the radio reminded of m

The cologne on your clothes aroused my desire for you

All night i lie awake on our bed dreaming of you
Children around saw me crying holding you pictures in my hand

your kissess where like a red wine

your touches were like a new born baby

your anger was like a deadly venom poison

your smile was like and angel on the air

This lonely nights killed me since you parted for me

I look outside the window hoping you will appear again

I can hardly accept the fact that you are gone

the food taste bitter without you

how i missed the sound of your voice

how i miss the love with had for each other

how i miss the passionate love we used to do

you were my soul mate that cannot be replaced

you warm tender affection will never come again

your sweet rose smell of your breath

All i had hoped will accomplished i am glad we . .

were able to complished.

I don't regret that i had found someone like you in my life

we stick'ed to our vows now that death ha separated us

now the remaining fact i how i am going to have to live

without you.

you were my chocolate dellux

my crispy chicken

my tender affection

my shelter in cold weathers

my pain killer in suffering

my water when i was thirsty

my pillow to lie to when i was tired

The offer I have For you

I loved seeing you laugh and smile
I loved waking up knowing that I am going to see you
I loved talking to you and hearing you talk about yourself
I loved the cologne you put on yourself

But the was so much to say to you
But the when i saw you i could articulate any words
Seeing you with another man made me jealous
Bearing in mind someone coming taking you away
i could bear the thought of it happening

When you gave me the chance to express how i felt for you
I could do anything or move as i found myself frozen
with excitement and fear of how to say it
when I glance in your eyes it was like gazing at the truth
I could feel tepid within because of your love

There was much more to tell and do
When you said you were getting married and felt that
you were leaving something behind you could not do it
I was timorous and puzzled about the news
I could feel the heart beat of my heart increasing

Gazing straight to your eyes a tear drop felt from my eye
when you ask what was wrong?
I lied when i said it was nothing
I wanted to express myself to you and tell you how much
I loved you and that i wanted us to be lovers

But then your sudden news and excitement when you
shocked and kissed me and told me the thing that was missing
in your life it was me all along you have lived and wanted to tell
me how much you loved me and who could not do anything
until now that i was the only man who made you perfect

When you said you were in love with another person
I never knew you felt that way about another alternative
guy who made you feel extra exceptional

I never thought it will be me or it was me
i Thought you meant your fiance?
I could imagine more you were in love
with me and you had feelings for me

The only man who appreciated you and you felt like a woman
The man the made you see anything is possible
and dreams can be realities and more
But i saw pain in your eyes when i said . .
I will always be there for you in good and bad time

That when ever you need someone to talk too
i will always be by your side
just as i always have been and will forever be just a Friend
Only a Friend nothing more?
Yes a friend nothing more but remember i will always
love you as a friend that is what i have to offer
Then you broke down into tears and felt the pain
Sorry for everything this is my only offer

My Imagination running around

The cold summer night came that day
It spring into my heart like a viper
The thoughts were draining me in my sleep
I could shiver a pun in my chest
like clouds leaping a way from the sky

Headaches raged in my head
like a needle being put in the eye
the intimidating of myself in the mirror
gave me the worst stomach ache
present memories of life left me
with an answered questions

of why the drama and misery
the aghast and the stains left me with a mark
in my heart and mind and soul
I mistook the smiles for attraction
for friendship and love

I had forsaken the chance of being happy
for a fling that left me in the woods
I grieved for a heart that was not pleased
i wept for a small thing that could not last
I payed for being not obedient

I drowned my sorry in drunkenness
I hammered the success of being loved and lonely
Tears of happiness left me dry and wounded
The diamond of the house made me wanna die
inside of the house with its keeper

If died and had to be reborn i will choose this moment
with you, as i look in too your eyes i can hardly saw a word
The pulse stopped moving in my veins as the disorder appeared
total melt down came as a surprise when i dwelt on the past
Chastity became casualties for memories

False Pretences cost us the joy of life
free willingness of the mind started to appear
when your hope wants you to fall in love
let the sorry release the feelings of love
as their free giving me hopes of imaginations

Love so free why don,t it let me decide for it
give me sadness of joy
make me complete as all men left for guarded
like you cannot denier it for anything
gone to early for a moment in life and time

The Pain

The pain of happiness is sadness
you said I punished you for loving me
but I punished you for cheating on me
you said I hate you cause you are the one meant for me
I hated you cause you played with my feelings

you said you had love for me
I only saw regret in your eyes
you said I have never loved you
I cherished and embrace your love for me

when you were I’ll n sick I was not there
but I have been with you for the first time you started to be ill
you accuse me of causing you the pain
I only made you laugh and forget your problems

you said I was not faithful
but each time you came from work I was there to attend you
you said I am divorcing you cause I have seen someone else
I am doing it so that you have something to keep you going with your life
you said I never understand you

You never understood the true meaning of love
that I had for you and desired for you to see
because you were busy with things that broke
our relationship in the first place

DON'T look at me like you can really see through me
For in the end you only see what YOU want to see
I'm NOT the girl in the mirror baby, I'm NOT even close
Why can't you see? I'm NOT the one you chose
The girl in the mirror is only a disguise

No matter how hard you try to pretend otherwise
We are stranger's still, YOU and I
You won't admit, you don't really wanna give up the lie
Ignorance is naught but a fool's paradise
It'll come crashing when I come to collect my prize
So laugh while you can, go on laugh till you cry

There's no escape for you why even bother to try?
Let's take this slow make it last a while
Change the rhythm of my conventional style
You're worth the risk why not take a chance

so emotional thoughts changed the behavior of the mind
you forget the nature of love and pain
like a beautiful mirror you saw yourself in two
but could not appreciate reality

By Oscar Stuta & Tara Solomons

Jealous Over Fact

It was this day that i felt i should take the journey to you heart
because you head was full of illusion and myths
you said i was cheating on you and have fallen in love
I asked you what made you say that?
because my behavior has changed

i was not the same person you had feelings for
i looked at you with amazement in to you eyes
although you tried lowering your gaze from me
i saw right through you and smiled
because for the first time in my life i saw you were
obsessed with me but not in love

you said in anger i was crazy and abused you trust
and that i have moved from you to a rich person
all along i was waiting for you to ask me who is this i have
fallen in love with
but jealous burned through your mind

filled with all kind of sad things

each moment and question you asked yourself
was I the one cheating on you or it was you playing
with my feelings because you had a friend
who made you special from the rest of the world

the person that you said i was cheating on you
and have fallen in love with is . . .  . .
her name is the one and only  . . . . .
you fool because the change of behavior was you
as i am in love with only you
the person that i am cheating with is you

you choose to follow your friends advise
and left me stranded for your attention
i could not have gone out and get someone new from me
as i am your only first and last lover you will ever had

The letter to you

As the air is coming out of me
as the time has finally come so utter this word
I am leaving you now it was not you
It was me the love i had for you was not appreciated

I have fallen in love with someone else the love
i showed her she appreciate
the things i buy for her she loves them
She is not quick to judge an act

I am sorry you feelings are hurt
I am sorry you trust is broken
I am sorry you emotions were played with
I am sorry that i do not deserve you enough

You played with my heart and feeling's
you wondered away all alone
apologetic because i was trapped in your love
i was a slave for your affection
a prisoner for your support

i wounded my self for you desires
i pierced my self in two for your friendship
i wrote the name of you in my heart
i am sad that i wasted my time with you
i am glad i found someone special close to you

she was there for me when i needed you
she supported me in hard times
she gave me comfort in times of need
she showed me the true meaning of love

I am the one to say to you i am sorry
we cannot carry on just like we used too
As i have fallen in love with my friend
tears my roll down you cheek
of surprise and shock

but she has stolen my heart and swept me off my feet
i write this letter  to tell you when you read it
you will find outside it was not you it was me
as we were meant not to be together

as i was not made for you and you not for me
to clear say it is over between us
i appreciate what we had and cherished together
but i do not love you anymore the love i had for you
is over and done with

sorry i waited so long to tell you this
the courage did not drive me enough to you
but i have fallen for my friend
sorry with love yours truly
former love XX

Angel

It is so sad that you left me
i could not break through
its so sad that you were leaving
it took time to know you
no matter how hard you tried too put me aside

i spilled you out like a hot coffee
like a used tool i trowed you out
the blood in you eyes made me realised my mistakes
of how could i have lead my Angel get away
without wings you were always optermistic about everything
your open minded drawed me close to you

our past mistakes could not determined our future
the current dillema made me blind from you love
but what i wanted to tell you then was . . .
how much i loved you and my formal goodbye
but no words needed to be exchanged as i knew then

for how sorry i was for what had happened
i will never forget that night how i hurt you
i know i said i am sorry and will make it through
i was sad that you were leaving as i was hurt too
when i am no more will this words be the last thing you think of me

like a disease descended upon me you were no more
tears rolling down my cheek will never bring you back
the love i wanted to show you will never be the same
how ironic i wanted to whisper to you ears
how lovely i wanted to kiss your lips

how bitter my heart became when you were gone
you were my shooting stars
my moon and universe but you left to soon
my Angel, my chocolate deluxe, and sugar cane
how lonely i have become since you left me alone my Angel

who knew life could cause such tumoil

Emotionless

What I did behind closed door was something terrible
I kept telling myself it will be over
like a drug it consumed me daily always on my mind
i had not regrets of what i did whats so ever
but i had a guilty conscience of what i was doing

i wanted to pray for it to end
i felt compiled not to quit it
like a hopeless woman i let myself fall for it
i needed someone to talk to
but i had no one to reveal my secret too

i kept lying to myself saying it was over
but i kept going there after a while
i was like an angel to the people who saw me
but inside me the was a devil i could not leave behind
As i had deceived so many with my words and charms

The were easy victims falling to my trap as a lured them in
the could not resist the words i spoke to them
I was a devil that wore Prado in the eyes of the world
I loved them
Cheated them
Broke their trust
but i never laid the hand on them

I used to apologise to them but the conscience died
The forgave me many times but i lied to myself
saying no one saw what i was doing
but that was the mistake i made which later
turn out to be vital and dangerous for me

but i never loved someone to pass the time away
i was dedicated to love a person until i got stuck in the cross road
i believed in honesty and the truth
until this girl came into my life and made me turn my back to my family

i knew what type of person she was still i went and fell for her
even after i was warned about her after i found out that the was something wrong
with her and his attitude but she told me it was too late for my family to accept me
then i said to her okay i am stuck with you forever
but the edge to get home came running through my mind like a lighting

one day i went back home and i asked for forgiveness not knowingly
the welcomed me and forgiven me of all the wrongs i did
Then i knew what that devil try to trick me so that i cannot return to
my friends and family above all the great almighty God

lessons in life regret the mistakes and ask for forgiveness

The Heart

My heart ache when i felt the pain inside me
i felt remorse when i saw tear drops from your eyes
i cried when the door was locked behind me
like a puppet i saw nothing good from you

a blade pieced me through the heart
words were like used sword cutting to the joints
vocabulary words used could not bring him back
platters used for combination kept braking each time

ironical two hearts that were meant to be one
tore its self apart like the one day winter time
when we were in gross in passionate love
that we had our affection showed

i started closing my eyes hoping you will touch my heart
one moment of prayer thought it will keep you near
hoped you will not be far away but a hurricane came
and you were forgotten in my hear like you never existed

tear of misery and regret followed me each time
the chance to say i love you again disappeared in a second
one moment to hold you close in my heart vanquished in minutes
the last kiss goodbye was far away in my mind

how i lingered  for one moment in time
how the words you were the one kept them hidden in my lips
blazing fires of memories burned me like a curse
but i did not have enough control of the heart
the heart was i mystery thing that i could not help
achieve its desires

Apple of the world

Remember when the argument broke between us 

That moment you said you lost the precious thing

you loved the most and that you cannot bring it back again

prince charming came and swept you off to paradise

but i had let you go as i saw you had drifted away from

our commitment and marriage

once again i thought about the decision and promise we had made

but nothing came through for us as each of us had taken to much

from the relationship that we could not move ahead with it

like a deaf man you played with my soul
like a child you took away my youth

like a snake your venom killed me quick

like an orphan you used me and then spite me out

a woman in labour the pain you caused me was to much to bear

almost like a cloud my world you took away without a word

you were flying higher left stranded between a single bridge
the love you had was like a charity waiting to benefit

like a Carmel you beat me up but i stood strong in your anger
was I a fool to have loved you so much and got myself
laugh at by other guys?
was it my humbleness that made you loved other men more than me
was it my kindness that made you sleep with my best friend

was it a crime to have given you more than chances required
was it the jealous of helping children out that made you turn yourself into a mat
i have been bitter, sad, angry about what you did to me
because of our daughter i tolerated you enough but now
it is over pack your things and get the hell out of our life
will never want to see the mattress you turn yourself into it
your words tasted like blood

when you gone we got a peace of mind  

When i am lonely

The relapse came to me like a thief in the night
i became hopeless in overcoming it
i did not seek help in time of need
i thought all a lone i could manage it

why is it when i am sad i always think about you
when the loneliness is there i can do it with out you
why is it when i laugh i forget that you were always there for me
the price that you will not pay with you life for me

every time when i go to sleep i wake because i miss you
i cannot deny the way that i love
never the let you go away from me
remember how we made the day that will never part

what if the apology did not work for the mistake
is the a second chance that will last forever
the deal that said will never lie and part why is it
so empty without you by my side
what if i called you again to try and work it out

why is it that i can do without you beside me
why is it when i hear you name something inside get filled
with joy and happiness just for your name
remember what i had whispered in your ears
and said is there something forever

the air i breath is you
the food i swallow is you happiness
you made it work but you parted from me without
a word who do you think will lift me up when i am down
who will love me like you did
who can change my sadness into tears of joy
who will wipe tho tears away from my cheek's

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