Angel

It is so sad that you left me
i could not break through
its so sad that you were leaving
it took time to know you
no matter how hard you tried too put me aside

i spilled you out like a hot coffee
like a used tool i trowed you out
the blood in you eyes made me realised my mistakes
of how could i have lead my Angel get away
without wings you were always optermistic about everything
your open minded drawed me close to you

our past mistakes could not determined our future
the current dillema made me blind from you love
but what i wanted to tell you then was . . .
how much i loved you and my formal goodbye
but no words needed to be exchanged as i knew then

for how sorry i was for what had happened
i will never forget that night how i hurt you
i know i said i am sorry and will make it through
i was sad that you were leaving as i was hurt too
when i am no more will this words be the last thing you think of me

like a disease descended upon me you were no more
tears rolling down my cheek will never bring you back
the love i wanted to show you will never be the same
how ironic i wanted to whisper to you ears
how lovely i wanted to kiss your lips

how bitter my heart became when you were gone
you were my shooting stars
my moon and universe but you left to soon
my Angel, my chocolate deluxe, and sugar cane
how lonely i have become since you left me alone my Angel

who knew life could cause such tumoil

Emotionless

What I did behind closed door was something terrible
I kept telling myself it will be over
like a drug it consumed me daily always on my mind
i had not regrets of what i did whats so ever
but i had a guilty conscience of what i was doing

i wanted to pray for it to end
i felt compiled not to quit it
like a hopeless woman i let myself fall for it
i needed someone to talk to
but i had no one to reveal my secret too

i kept lying to myself saying it was over
but i kept going there after a while
i was like an angel to the people who saw me
but inside me the was a devil i could not leave behind
As i had deceived so many with my words and charms

The were easy victims falling to my trap as a lured them in
the could not resist the words i spoke to them
I was a devil that wore Prado in the eyes of the world
I loved them
Cheated them
Broke their trust
but i never laid the hand on them

I used to apologise to them but the conscience died
The forgave me many times but i lied to myself
saying no one saw what i was doing
but that was the mistake i made which later
turn out to be vital and dangerous for me

but i never loved someone to pass the time away
i was dedicated to love a person until i got stuck in the cross road
i believed in honesty and the truth
until this girl came into my life and made me turn my back to my family

i knew what type of person she was still i went and fell for her
even after i was warned about her after i found out that the was something wrong
with her and his attitude but she told me it was too late for my family to accept me
then i said to her okay i am stuck with you forever
but the edge to get home came running through my mind like a lighting

one day i went back home and i asked for forgiveness not knowingly
the welcomed me and forgiven me of all the wrongs i did
Then i knew what that devil try to trick me so that i cannot return to
my friends and family above all the great almighty God

lessons in life regret the mistakes and ask for forgiveness

The Heart

My heart ache when i felt the pain inside me
i felt remorse when i saw tear drops from your eyes
i cried when the door was locked behind me
like a puppet i saw nothing good from you

a blade pieced me through the heart
words were like used sword cutting to the joints
vocabulary words used could not bring him back
platters used for combination kept braking each time

ironical two hearts that were meant to be one
tore its self apart like the one day winter time
when we were in gross in passionate love
that we had our affection showed

i started closing my eyes hoping you will touch my heart
one moment of prayer thought it will keep you near
hoped you will not be far away but a hurricane came
and you were forgotten in my hear like you never existed

tear of misery and regret followed me each time
the chance to say i love you again disappeared in a second
one moment to hold you close in my heart vanquished in minutes
the last kiss goodbye was far away in my mind

how i lingered  for one moment in time
how the words you were the one kept them hidden in my lips
blazing fires of memories burned me like a curse
but i did not have enough control of the heart
the heart was i mystery thing that i could not help
achieve its desires

Apple of the world

Remember when the argument broke between us 

That moment you said you lost the precious thing

you loved the most and that you cannot bring it back again

prince charming came and swept you off to paradise

but i had let you go as i saw you had drifted away from

our commitment and marriage

once again i thought about the decision and promise we had made

but nothing came through for us as each of us had taken to much

from the relationship that we could not move ahead with it

like a deaf man you played with my soul
like a child you took away my youth

like a snake your venom killed me quick

like an orphan you used me and then spite me out

a woman in labour the pain you caused me was to much to bear

almost like a cloud my world you took away without a word

you were flying higher left stranded between a single bridge
the love you had was like a charity waiting to benefit

like a Carmel you beat me up but i stood strong in your anger
was I a fool to have loved you so much and got myself
laugh at by other guys?
was it my humbleness that made you loved other men more than me
was it my kindness that made you sleep with my best friend

was it a crime to have given you more than chances required
was it the jealous of helping children out that made you turn yourself into a mat
i have been bitter, sad, angry about what you did to me
because of our daughter i tolerated you enough but now
it is over pack your things and get the hell out of our life
will never want to see the mattress you turn yourself into it
your words tasted like blood

when you gone we got a peace of mind  

When i am lonely

The relapse came to me like a thief in the night
i became hopeless in overcoming it
i did not seek help in time of need
i thought all a lone i could manage it

why is it when i am sad i always think about you
when the loneliness is there i can do it with out you
why is it when i laugh i forget that you were always there for me
the price that you will not pay with you life for me

every time when i go to sleep i wake because i miss you
i cannot deny the way that i love
never the let you go away from me
remember how we made the day that will never part

what if the apology did not work for the mistake
is the a second chance that will last forever
the deal that said will never lie and part why is it
so empty without you by my side
what if i called you again to try and work it out

why is it that i can do without you beside me
why is it when i hear you name something inside get filled
with joy and happiness just for your name
remember what i had whispered in your ears
and said is there something forever

the air i breath is you
the food i swallow is you happiness
you made it work but you parted from me without
a word who do you think will lift me up when i am down
who will love me like you did
who can change my sadness into tears of joy
who will wipe tho tears away from my cheek's

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