Wasted

I roam around the streets every night
finding a fix for my wasted life
I live my life on a bogus fast line
petrified by my own existence.

Neighbors gossip about m all day
my enemies pretend to be my friends
drowning my life in a bottle, bring them joy
I am the enemy within me.

Being a drunkard and with no hobbies.
Has turned into a hobo
my close allies have turned me into a public mockery
my priest has curved my being into Sunday summons.

Alexander gaze in the mirror?
“Don’t let your sat back, make you sit back, you can come back.”
There is a lot of potential and dedication
that need the right time to be unlocked.
where they’re dreams the is hope for tomorrow.

When they use their mouth to spread lies and rumors
let your action be the shining light for you,
life is about face the consequence
I have had enough of hiding into the bottles.

Forget about the success you had couple years back
it is time to repent and reform from the melancholy
by removing the fossils that held my life back
A fresh start in the same place is the best tonic
consumption and cowardly to living can solve anything
but supplication and determination is the key to a happy life

Apologies for telling (sweet little liars)

In the news papers they say you don’t get until you lose everything
I thought I could get away with it all.
You were the one who made me do it
I was in love with two identities of a single person.

All along it was you showing me that lying was the wrong cause
time could have made me escape invading your privacy.
Appreciating the moments that we spend on the roof,
it's only the memories left of what could have been.

I could not stand firm in the truth and relationship boundaries.
I blame it on alcohol and the devil

,
making them famous for what they have never done to me,
I am so remorseful for had wasted your time,
apologise for saying I was with the guys all the time.
While I was supposed to be getting cozy with only you.

I even lied to myself unaware of the monster I have been,
Sorry for starting to drink on your watch.

I am so shameless for saying you are the one who turned me into an alcoholic.
I am repented for all the frustration I took to you and your mother.
I have learned from my mistake and invading people privacy.
on my bended knees I bare my face in shame,
humbly asking you to accept my apology for telling you lies

Even if i cannot buy you those . . . . . . . . . .

I don't believe in celebrating another person
valentine or Valentino? I never met the dude in my life
me and you we are not fakes
while the whole world celebrates a month

This is from me to you the whole year is a month of love
I cannot show my love affection in a month for you
we are two people with different background
how can I buy for you the jewellery to fill the house than any

and have no one to compliment you with

my love is like a rainbow covering you soul
deeper than any other ocean
each year is a season of my love
I want to be the one who will cook for you
massage your feet each and every day

my love for you has no haughtiness.
to give you special gifts only in this month
I have to shower you with presents every day of you life
whispering love words on your ears
going with you on a straw to the park

what good is to have all these material things and still be alone
love has no boundary or limitations
sorry I had to write these words to you,
you are my guide to lost route
the only soul refuge for my troubled life.