I missed that person

That said write a book and I will edit it,
If you crack a joke I will laugh at it,
If you play a beat I'll dance to it
Who words where like soothing remedy,
Who's friendship I value more than wealth.

Those words inspired me when I locked down in a dark pit
Where did she goes to

I searched the whole world but there is no ounce of her trace
I keep wondering is she married
Does she have children

Are all her wishes fulfilled
Is she still loving as she was back then.
I wish I could turn the clock backwards.
When she told me those words I took them like a joke.
Later I realised they took a lot for her to utter those words.
I am left stranded without her address.

The gap that has opened they offer me no sleep at night.
The truth was that my eyes got opened later in life.
Only remains I have are the words that she left recorded on my mind,
"If you jump I will catch you at the bottom of the sea",
"If you are trap will sacrifice myself for you to be free"
So don't take anything for granted in this short space of time,
All the relationship are important whether years started or the just got off the ground.

Value those who sees potentially in you,
Tomorrow nobody knows what's in store for us.

Why cry for me

When a child is born people rejoice.
When a person dies people shed tears.
Family member claiming to know you.
Friends as always scale you on your past.
I have people mourning for me.
I have judges every where I go if though I am innocent.

This journey is a for one person alone.
When we peel onions we cry.
When I die don't shed anything for me.
You could express how you felt when I was alive and kicking.
I hate two face lie who pretends.
Each and everyday I am tested by my own desires.
People want to control me

They want me to be their own pet.
Even a dog when you give something it does not like it leave it there.
I have drank and robbed even killed.
But I was never satisfied I lack knowledge.
I have a 15 years old physical appearance.
I have a 65 year old understanding and reasoning
.
Why when we are dumped we resort to suicide.
While we spent most of our lives being single and free.
When you are single they start to complain.
When you have a wife the say when are we having kids.
When you work when are you getting yourself a house and a car
Imagine I have been tested by unemployment?
I have run through fire for a degree?

I suffered palpitations

because of money,
I got stroke because of stress.
Why can't I be alone for a while.
You said I am haughty because I am trying to make a name for myself,
When I was jobless and stayed at home you call me a useless man.
Now that everything its on my site you claim I have pride,
What is it that you want from me?

I received all of this because I first feared God.
I cannot comprehend the love that you want to express to me.
But don't weep for me when I die
You chance its still wide open tell me now please.
Don't become an imaginary widow while free time its there
Don't become my friend if you know we could be more than friends.
Be genuine from the get-go.

Even though I have two eyes I am blind emotional.
I don't see signs that are there.
Don't pressure yourself.
Live your own life they way you want to be.
To be continued . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

Pain

have you ever felt in love?
so in love that you become so helpless?

a feeling so hurtful?
that your whole body shutters when you thin about it.

The eyes
the walk
the legs . . . .ooh now that's a sight

rivers and streams of confusion
run through your body
with questions only he can answer.

tornadoes of mixed emotions.
surround your unprotected land.
a land so fragile that only his army of love can protect

till you finally reach your point
of no return and ask yourself
is it worth it?


written by Noma

Jealousy

It fills you up like a sour juice
It becomes hard to swallow
good traits vanquish in a instant moment
small conversion brings up rage that boiled inside
that were not resolved or discussed

I heard that it was over between us
due to neglect our relationship
but when I saw him holding your hand.
I cursed you and called you names
blaming you for talking me like a fool

If I could not get you, no one deserved you also.
Although I emotionally abused you for a period of time
I was not there when hails and heavy storm where at the door
compliment I never gave you, the new guy filled you with laughter
that’s when I saw you had white teeth as snow

Every boy that I saw chatting with you     
I followed them I beat them to a pulp and let after that
I later realized I was not in love with you anymore
but I was obsessed with you and hearing you name

Wasted

I roam around the streets every night
finding a fix for my wasted life
I live my life on a bogus fast line
petrified by my own existence.

Neighbors gossip about m all day
my enemies pretend to be my friends
drowning my life in a bottle, bring them joy
I am the enemy within me.

Being a drunkard and with no hobbies.
Has turned into a hobo
my close allies have turned me into a public mockery
my priest has curved my being into Sunday summons.

Alexander gaze in the mirror?
“Don’t let your sat back, make you sit back, you can come back.”
There is a lot of potential and dedication
that need the right time to be unlocked.
where they’re dreams the is hope for tomorrow.

When they use their mouth to spread lies and rumors
let your action be the shining light for you,
life is about face the consequence
I have had enough of hiding into the bottles.

Forget about the success you had couple years back
it is time to repent and reform from the melancholy
by removing the fossils that held my life back
A fresh start in the same place is the best tonic
consumption and cowardly to living can solve anything
but supplication and determination is the key to a happy life

Apologies for telling (sweet little liars)

In the news papers they say you don’t get until you lose everything
I thought I could get away with it all.
You were the one who made me do it
I was in love with two identities of a single person.

All along it was you showing me that lying was the wrong cause
time could have made me escape invading your privacy.
Appreciating the moments that we spend on the roof,
it's only the memories left of what could have been.

I could not stand firm in the truth and relationship boundaries.
I blame it on alcohol and the devil

,
making them famous for what they have never done to me,
I am so remorseful for had wasted your time,
apologise for saying I was with the guys all the time.
While I was supposed to be getting cozy with only you.

I even lied to myself unaware of the monster I have been,
Sorry for starting to drink on your watch.

I am so shameless for saying you are the one who turned me into an alcoholic.
I am repented for all the frustration I took to you and your mother.
I have learned from my mistake and invading people privacy.
on my bended knees I bare my face in shame,
humbly asking you to accept my apology for telling you lies

Even if i cannot buy you those . . . . . . . . . .

I don't believe in celebrating another person
valentine or Valentino? I never met the dude in my life
me and you we are not fakes
while the whole world celebrates a month

This is from me to you the whole year is a month of love
I cannot show my love affection in a month for you
we are two people with different background
how can I buy for you the jewellery to fill the house than any

and have no one to compliment you with

my love is like a rainbow covering you soul
deeper than any other ocean
each year is a season of my love
I want to be the one who will cook for you
massage your feet each and every day

my love for you has no haughtiness.
to give you special gifts only in this month
I have to shower you with presents every day of you life
whispering love words on your ears
going with you on a straw to the park

what good is to have all these material things and still be alone
love has no boundary or limitations
sorry I had to write these words to you,
you are my guide to lost route
the only soul refuge for my troubled life.