Jealousy

It fills you up like a sour juice
It becomes hard to swallow
good traits vanquish in a instant moment
small conversion brings up rage that boiled inside
that were not resolved or discussed

I heard that it was over between us
due to neglect our relationship
but when I saw him holding your hand.
I cursed you and called you names
blaming you for talking me like a fool

If I could not get you, no one deserved you also.
Although I emotionally abused you for a period of time
I was not there when hails and heavy storm where at the door
compliment I never gave you, the new guy filled you with laughter
that’s when I saw you had white teeth as snow

Every boy that I saw chatting with you     
I followed them I beat them to a pulp and let after that
I later realized I was not in love with you anymore
but I was obsessed with you and hearing you name

Wasted

I roam around the streets every night
finding a fix for my wasted life
I live my life on a bogus fast line
petrified by my own existence.

Neighbors gossip about m all day
my enemies pretend to be my friends
drowning my life in a bottle, bring them joy
I am the enemy within me.

Being a drunkard and with no hobbies.
Has turned into a hobo
my close allies have turned me into a public mockery
my priest has curved my being into Sunday summons.

Alexander gaze in the mirror?
“Don’t let your sat back, make you sit back, you can come back.”
There is a lot of potential and dedication
that need the right time to be unlocked.
where they’re dreams the is hope for tomorrow.

When they use their mouth to spread lies and rumors
let your action be the shining light for you,
life is about face the consequence
I have had enough of hiding into the bottles.

Forget about the success you had couple years back
it is time to repent and reform from the melancholy
by removing the fossils that held my life back
A fresh start in the same place is the best tonic
consumption and cowardly to living can solve anything
but supplication and determination is the key to a happy life

Apologies for telling (sweet little liars)

In the news papers they say you don’t get until you lose everything
I thought I could get away with it all.
You were the one who made me do it
I was in love with two identities of a single person.

All along it was you showing me that lying was the wrong cause
time could have made me escape invading your privacy.
Appreciating the moments that we spend on the roof,
it's only the memories left of what could have been.

I could not stand firm in the truth and relationship boundaries.
I blame it on alcohol and the devil

,
making them famous for what they have never done to me,
I am so remorseful for had wasted your time,
apologise for saying I was with the guys all the time.
While I was supposed to be getting cozy with only you.

I even lied to myself unaware of the monster I have been,
Sorry for starting to drink on your watch.

I am so shameless for saying you are the one who turned me into an alcoholic.
I am repented for all the frustration I took to you and your mother.
I have learned from my mistake and invading people privacy.
on my bended knees I bare my face in shame,
humbly asking you to accept my apology for telling you lies

Even if i cannot buy you those . . . . . . . . . .

I don't believe in celebrating another person
valentine or Valentino? I never met the dude in my life
me and you we are not fakes
while the whole world celebrates a month

This is from me to you the whole year is a month of love
I cannot show my love affection in a month for you
we are two people with different background
how can I buy for you the jewellery to fill the house than any

and have no one to compliment you with

my love is like a rainbow covering you soul
deeper than any other ocean
each year is a season of my love
I want to be the one who will cook for you
massage your feet each and every day

my love for you has no haughtiness.
to give you special gifts only in this month
I have to shower you with presents every day of you life
whispering love words on your ears
going with you on a straw to the park

what good is to have all these material things and still be alone
love has no boundary or limitations
sorry I had to write these words to you,
you are my guide to lost route
the only soul refuge for my troubled life.

Begging for Second Chance

Hey I want to apologize for abandoning you
leaving you for 5 years alone
in a big mansion without kids or anyone
I let myself be tempted by the wrong things
I went after prostitutes to satisfy my wants

I did not want to hurt you, that’s why I lied about it
attending a course far away from you
I went after what I wanted not what not what I need
alcohol became my new best friends
lies became my belt around the waste

Cheating became my source of honesty
I know that half million cheque I left behind for you
could bring back the lost of time
I should have  told you as soon as I started having those desires
if I could share those with you my pillar who else could it have been?

now I come looking like a box of coffin
for you to take me back in your arms
I don’t have the right to say this
when you cheated I had given you a second chance
all I am asking is the same courtesy

I am man enough to admit my guilt
I was wrong to take you away from you parents
just to abandon you alone to stare into the door
worrying all this years if I am okay
you turned grey before your time

All of this is my fault
if I could turn back the time I would
no matter how weird the song my sound
I am sorry for the wrongs I have done to you
I love you, and I beg for your forgiveness

The way you are

You are the most gorgeous and prettiest woman alive
That’s what visible to the outside world
it opened the doors of treasure for you
it gave you new identity and new friends
hope you can completely trust your heart

I said I love you and 5 minutes late retracted it
being too beautiful changed you
money made you look down on me
that’s made you lie in bed with the devil
it bounded you to it

I am not in love with your beauty
I am in love with the inner you
even if you have blade scars in your face I will still do
even if you are unrecognizable in the mirror and you don’t see yourself
I will still do see you, I found my heart captured by you

Also without fame or make up
I can bare this life with you
let us escape this fantasy life
and live a reality life
where we can be truthful us

That five minutes I retracted I take it back
let me just say this magical words
they don’t need whisper only honesty
I love you more than my job and money
you are the woman I have been searching
now that I found you
“will you marry me”

hi . .. . . . . .

This was a beginning of something great
I had lost in my hour of longing
I settled for second best
back then i told myself  i was not your type
rich guys was who you wanted

I become your best friend

to be you armor and savior

I could not lose you all together
all these passing by just being a friend

The deep down secret was sacrificial

When I find out you were expecting

Everything thing shattered inside me

Like a fountain without streams of water
I was a mute form that time

This is not a letter of regret
I felt like writing this in my own diary
like a movie scripts I find myself stuck
hopeful the one you have will embrace you

Share in your set back and success
that I no longer had the place in your heart

I seal this message with a joyful tear

Knowing that your new family is making you happy

All the wealthy I have it is for you

I have taken pleasure in being called your bodyguard

Those tiny moments has all accomplish my dream
you can have it all my lawyer will read the will
which gives you all that belonged in my empire

I am a fool who settled for being you best friend forever

Your spell worked wondrous in my aching heart

I choose to be you errant boy over everything

Since I don’t have much my heart has taken worst-

Pain which is incurable.

All that had taken place it was for a good reason