Love your Good byes

I sat by the door alone.
Hoping you will call just to hear your voice,
Promised to give you friendship for eternity,
Being at your side forever when you needed a shoulder to cry on.

Landed you my ear to whisper your deep secrets.
When tears started to roll down your cheeks I comforted you with laughter.
When someone took you heart for granted I amended it with Happy ending Romantic movies.
When you felt unloved and wanted I supported you with my presence daily.

Now that I have found someone for myself you want to keep me as a prisoner for yourself.
Finally I am happy you turned yourself into a blackmailer.
Now that I am happily married man you are my family stalker.
You want to possess and own me for you own sick thoughts.

You have already forgotten I never abandoned you.
My wife knows about the promises I made to you and I intended to keep it.
That will be there when you needed me the most.
But I have an obligation towards my family, that takes priority
You are just bitter and jealous for no reason.
All along I thought were best friends nothing more.
I keep wondering what is it that you want from me.

Insults if they came my way from you would have tolerated them.
But directed to my wife you have crossed the limit and boundaries of friendship.
This is where I am ending it all the promises and the so - called friendship we had.
Most of my life I had confused you with happiness and laughter including joy of life.
But I neglected myself in the process of making you happy as a friend.

Just wanted to let you know for our old time sake friendship.
That Little Catherine my daughter that's her name.
Has your mouth and lips.
Know that I loved your Good bye
Take care hope you will find someone more than me in life.

The mask

If I was a blind man could you give the curtsey.
Could you blush to me like our first meeting.
Will you grap and hold my hand tight.
Can I learn on you for strength.

Now that the accident has occurred.
My strength and stamina had faded away.
I can even bath myself anymore.
I can't walk properly now that I am blind.

Used to dream about you night and day.
I have become a burden to you.
You have turned me in a mockery of a man.
No longer man enough for you.

You wore a mask and it perfectly suited you.
I could uncover the woman behind it.
You have worn me out emotional.
Have abused and tarnished my dignity as your husband.
I am like a garbage in your eyes waiting to be thrown away.

What has occurred to the woman I felt in love with?
Where has you compassion vanished into?
Your respect you took it outside the window.
You left me stranded in the room alone unable to help myself.
I got cremated when you left me for another woman.😟😟🔥🔥

Black bird

Why is sorry overheating my heart.
Heart become loneliness.
Mouth uttered painess. 
How could I thrive in this life?

I was born bounded by chains of tears and headaches.
I could never love anything in this world.
Had never been taught from birth how to do so.
I was castrated to missery and anguish of this life.

No one can tame the crying every night alone in my bed.
Can any know the Thoughts of my heart.
Do people exist that can put me out of my hopelessness.
I commit suicide every day in my sleep but find myself awake every morning.

Black bird your mother was loneliness.
And I was a cheap and unwanted trash.
They said love is beautiful and every thing it holds nothing back.
But I am bounded by chain of poverty and illiterate.
When nothing comes right.

I try to sing words never come out.
I scream lounder than anything but the sound is isolated in my body.
All I have seen and still see is cruelty that has blinded my mind.
It has become a lordship of my life.
Black bird you cannot fly.

Black bird there is no hope for you.
Black bird the voice inside has kept you a prisoner.
Black bird you are slave of your own doing.

If you could believe

Headache begin like an ocean of sorrow that u keep drowning in.
Don't know should I reach for my cellphone or wait for your call.
Thinking it's a waiting game between us.
Things that keeping us glued is our bond.

You make me live when I want to commit suicide.
When I want to cry you make laugh.
When I frown you make me smile.
Your eyes are my witness to the love it have for you.

You are my was.will be my future.
You believe in me when no one else does.
I am afraid people will notice and spread rumours that I need you more than words.
When I am with you time passes by like a fly.

You've turned my life around.
When you call me if begin to blush.
When you drop the phone I begin to smile alone.
Then my face starts to glow because of you.

I love you more than you can conceive.
Dream of you day and night.
I need you more than you can apprehend.
Hope my life can remain this way.
The present feels like the past.

I don't want it any other way.
You love me like a new born.
You kill me with kindness like there is no other.
You protect me like an egg.
You shelter me like a refuge.
If only you could believe. 🌹🌹🌹

Caught in the cross fire

When you are stuck in a crossroads.
Thinking you had it all.
What went wrong?
Did you become too pride and haughty looked down on your relationship.

Was it a moment of temptation that lead you are stray.
Missing the cuddling?
The romantic pillow fights?
The blindness disrupted you soul mate to sleep away from your palms .

That moment of weakness can brake or make us strong.
The company we keep influence our choices.
you found yourself in love with two different people you cannot choose one of them.
Perhaps you are more in love with your friend than your partner.

Life always brings us to the crossover bridge.
It's either we gamble with our hearts or we get stuck in a endless and emotional draining relationship.
Even though people might not like our decision but we have responsibility to keep.

Before regrettably take a leap of faith.
See where is this stream of love taking you too.
Hopefully when you are staring on your roof top house you can simply say I took a chance with my feelings and felt the glimpse of love.
Regret is a waste of talent and time including emotions.
When the dust has settled feel the joy that love has to offer.

Born to choose

I choose you because I see the devil and angel in your eyes.
I choose you because deception are sharp as a struggle when we lie to each other.
I choose you because when we deceive for effection it's a need to know basis.
I choose you because there is not greater love like a woman falling for me.

I choose you cause you make me laugh
I choose you cause you make me feel complete
I choose you cause I have no regrets
I choose you cause I have no where to go

I choose you because I feel loved
I choose you because I am tired of staring the walls
I choose you because you make me question my existence.
I choose you because there is no one else.

I choose you cause someone else loves you
I choose you cause I am jealous of the person that has your heart.
I choose you cause you are a better friend.
I choose you cause you made someone realise that love is everything.
I choose you because when I talk to you in get butterflies in my tummy.

I choose you cause you are somebody wife
I choose you cause you my fantasy
I choose you cause I can never have you.
I choose you cause you are equipped to forgive.

I choose you because I will wiped all your tears from you cheeks.
I choose you because you will never face sorrow and pain.
I choose you because you are someone parents
I choose you because you will never be mine.
I choose you because you are only a dream in my mind.
I choose you because I want to display you around the world.

To the beautiful mind

Even though the world says you are young petite and ebony.
You are beautiful in your own skin.
You are mature in my eyes.
You will hear negative words outside.
You will succumb to pressure and negativity 

You are your own woman in your rights
You can decide on your own.
You have feelings and a fragile heart.
Although some might advise you in a good way but you hold the final one.
I have seen the most gorgeous woman around the world but have never seen a humble soul like you.

I know I am older than you but the matter of the heart are between two people.
Every time I talked with you my heart skips a beat.
My friend tells me what am I waiting for.
I tell them I want you to be ready emotional for something with me.

Your maturity attracts me each time.
Your smile makes me weak on my knees.
Your laughter sends me heart to a cardio rest.
I lie awake at night thinking about you. 

Wondering if it's possible for the two of us.
In this cruel world.
You will hear rumors that have never existed.
Peer pressure will be on your shoulders to turn me down.
The question is if your hearts want what will you say?